barely functioning

[RcKitty]

One thing that i hate about depression is that those times when you need the most help are the very times your are least able to ask for help. And sometimes when u r barely functioning, an " i'm ok" is just easier than the truth. because the words do not come out, because i am just so very tired, tired of it all...

[Starrlight]

❤️ I hear you. I’m sorry you are feeling this way. I feel similar today. Laying in bed not able to move for hours not able to stop worrying . I eventually got up to take care of my kids and wishing I could die today and guilt washes over me for it.

Thinking about what I’d say to my therapist if I reached out for help and all I can think of is that I can’t receive help of goIng to a crisis center because of covid19 so there’s really nothing she could do for me except listen I guess. But will I even be able to make the call? I don’t think so. Last I spoke to her I told plans of suicide when I get old if Alzheimer’s comes my way and I’m finding it hard to wait so long to put an end to my suffering. I don’t know what is wrong with me.

Sorry I went on about myself. I really need to release stuff. You can pm me any time RcKitty. I hope something helps you feel better today. (((((Hug))))))) ❤️

[LoveBear]

RcKitty - you are not alone. You’ve expressed my feelings exactly. I’ve been posting periodically just to get it out of my head - hardly ever talk to anyone (ok really no one but my counselor). I tell my counselor I’m just so tired all the time - don’t see the point most days.

[Bobatea]

That is so true! I'm sorry to hear you're going through a tough time. Have you considered talking to a counselor?

[Starrlight]

How are you today?

[ciley]

hello its Ciley, barely sane, but have to function,cos i'm stubborn and someone will make it more diff if i don't~sending love and healing~you will feel betterx

[ciley]

they keepmaking me send a new message ~love and healing for you, i'm barely sane this is 3rd message~please SOMEONE take pity

[RcKitty]

Ciley, I am here for you! Ive been emotionally shutdown. hard to post and reply feeling this way. but I want you to now you are not alone