barely holding on

[DMM1188]

I’ve had 3 big anxiety attacks on the past 2 days and am in the midst of one now because work starts soon. I’m going to try to tell my bosss again absolutely yet the anxiety( I even got a drs note to ask for support). He asked me if m going to come back for the next school year and I said yes because I was caught off guard and there were people listening in. So I want to tell him I’m seriously doubting it but not sure just because I know he had a hard time finding me in the first place.. having a horrible week and it’s only Tuesday!

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Sorry for your struggles. Can’t you leave it as you intend to return and see what the summer brings? Who knows? You could be in a much better place by then. I’m assuming you’re in therapy and taking meds.

Take today as it comes. And breathe.

[DMM1188 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

I might end up doing that. I’m having my second anxiety attack of the day and it’s not even 9:00 am..I’m on therapy and taking meds and actually changing meds because they haven’t been working for me for a long time(Zoloft). Changing to cymbalta

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to DMM1188]

See maybe the change in meds will help. You never know.

[Shield_Of_Faith]

I'm sorry your struggling. I hope you feel better soon. When I have panic attacks sometimes they last hours non stop. Like one time it was 3 hours and half my anxiety just kept going non stop, literally. Eventually my family calmed me down but damn that really sucks. I mean really sucks. No words can describe how bad that feeling is.I pray these panic attacks of yours stop and you soon feel better. I'm here if anything.

[DMM1188 in reply to Shield_Of_Faith]

thankfully mine aren’t super long but I’ve been getting more and more of them.. I had four today, one took me like 45 minutes to be get out of( that’s actually pretty long for me, I know I’m very lucky in that regard) thank you

[ElephantsHear]

Picture me holding your hand and protecting you. can you tell me what may be the source of this anxiety?. Is it PTSD related to an incident or you’ve always had some anxiety but it’s gotten worse? Sometimes a family death or traumatic event can trigger intense anxiety. Are you safe? Someone asked me that on this forum when I was very anxious and it was comforting. it made me realize I really was safe. I wish I could help more, but maybe identifying what is making you fearful and keeping a journal might help. Also, counseling and you’re seeing a doctor- great.

[ElephantsHear in reply to ElephantsHear]

PS I know it feels crummy when you feel like you’re letting someone down, but your mental health takes priority over your job. It’s still difficult, but feel good about whatever decision you make.

[DMM1188 in reply to ElephantsHear]

I actually do have ptsd from just a lot of medical issues as a child and bullying.. I know something about this job and this particular student are triggering me I just haven’t been able to figure it out yet.

[Montana136]

Breathe in and out slowly concentrate on your breath. Try to do that for just 2 minutes. Anxiety is difficult I hear you. Sometimes we can't speak the truth to others especially if there are others hanging around listening. There will come a time when you will be able to tell this person how you really do feel maybe a phone call or a meeting or an appointment I don't know the circumstance exactly but. There still is time for you to speak your truth whatever that may be. Stay strong keep breathing and think of calming things. Even if you have to excuse yourself to the restroom. Good luck on thinking of you I'm pulling for you. Take it easy on yourself. Be well

[DMM1188]

I’ve had 4 anxiety attacks today and I’ve been up since 2 am.. didn’t sleep great on Sunday either. Considering just taking a mental health day at some point t I feel like I’m heading for a nervous breakdown

[ElephantsHear in reply to DMM1188]

I believe in you! You will overcome this. You’ll figure out what is triggering you and learn coping strategies to deal with this. Maybe keep a journal. You’re a very strong lady, I can tell, and this anxiety won’t steam roll over you. Speak positivity out loud and correct any negative thoughts that come in your head. BTW- Buspar is used for anxiety- it’s a scheduled med (usually prescribed 2 or 3 x per day). I noticed a calmness in about 3-4 days after taking it. I’m no longer on it. Taking Mental health days are necessary- good thinking.

[DMM1188 in reply to ElephantsHear]

thank you! Going to try to talk to my boss today, didn’t sleep well last night and had another bad anxiety attack last night around 7:30. I might ask my prescriber about that prescription

[DMM1188]

and I was actually doing better(slightly) but still crying a little because I was apprehensive …my dad(who I still live with) was like. are you crying again! In the nastiest voice possible. He is the reason why I react the way I do because whenever ic get upset he’d absolutely lose his mind and scream and say stuff like “stop crying or I’ll really give you something to cry about /make you wish you were never born) which would always make me even more upset, so that’s how I react to everything bad now

[designguy]

Here is my reply to a similar message by another poster:

I found that medication helped my anxiety/panic some but did not resolve it. What helped was learning what anxiety really is and how to constructively deal with it, in other words I had to change my thinking and approach to it. The reality is that anxiety is a paradox, the more you struggle or fight it the more it persists so the solution is to surrender to it, let your body desensitize and allow it and then it will dissolve. Anxiety can also be a signal that you have repressed emotions that you need to deal with and process. Anxiety can also be caused or contributed to by not having your hormones, thyroid or adrenals in balance and even a poor diet. Another thing that is really helpful is learning and practicing simple mindfulness meditation in order to be able to observe your thoughts and not attach to them or believe your anxious thoughts. I found the DARE Anxiety book and youtube videos very helpful, as well as the book "At last a life and beyond" by Paul David. You might also like the youtube and website of Paige Pradko for good, clear information and advice.

[Blue_81]

A day off may help out. I suffer from anxiety as well, pretty much every morning. There are times that I can’t handle it and I take a day off from work. I just go for long walks and go sit at a park to enjoy nature. For the most part this helps me out alot and I can come back to work the next day. Reach out as much as you need.