Depression and Anxiety all time high

[nicolemp0727]

I’m so sick of my depression and anxiety. I can’t get a break from it and I can’t seem to shake it this time. Not sure if the quarantine is adding to it, but it’s bad. I started lexapro and was about a month in and had to stop because I swear it was increasing both.

But lately I’ve been having really intrusive thoughts, especially about not having the will to live or that my kids would be better off without me. They are intrusive because they are extremely bothersome, but still very scary having them. I went through an extremely traumatic event about a month ago, so much so that I don’t think I can elaborate publicly about it, but it’s really messed me up. I’m happy to share privately, just am ashamed to do so publicly. I don’t know how I’m ever going to move past this, my mind is like reliving the events over and over again.

Suggestions to stop this suffering? I’m going on a solo trip to Arizona to be with a family member for a few days because my health is just suffering tremendously from this. I’m young, I’m only 31, but I feel like I’m dying, constantly.

[Agora1]

nicolemp, you sound like you are really hurting and need someone to talk with.

This is a very safe and nonjudgmental place. I do understand if you prefer to

PM me. I'd be happy to support a listening ear. I care xx

[sebastians]

You are so young--please don't give up. I am 71 and have dealt with this for 30 years-much worse in last year. I don't have "the answer"--but you are not alone...

[Starrlight]

I’m so sorry you are in such pain. I can listen. ❤️

[nicolemp0727]

I really have no intention of hurting myself, I’m just in a really low, low. I’ve always suffered more from anxiety and depression has been more manageable, but now it seems to have shifted.

[Starrlight in reply to nicolemp0727]

Same here. Anxiety is the big one for me but so low right now...Did something happen to make you feel low?

[nicolemp0727 in reply to Starrlight]

I just messaged you