No love

[blOndie08]

During my life here I realize there’s no room for love anymore. It’s a fantasy, fairy tales now happily ever afters only sex greed and power. Or maybe just not meant for me? I’m empty I’m dead there’s nothing left of me. I feel like everyone has been slowly eating away at me I’m gone. I’m dead

[Hidden]

What do you mean..tell me more..

[blOndie08 in reply to Hidden]

I have nothing left

[CapitalT]

I hear what you say, and understand.

There can be love without the greed and sex, it comes down to the needs of those involved.

Yes, it can be difficult, especially in today's hectic society.

It may come out of the blue when you least expect it, so please don't give up hope.

Good luck

[Hidden]

Nothing left of what..love comes when you least expect it..First step, love your self!..its the foundation for love..how have others eaten away at you..is it because you gave them to much than they deserved?...your such a loving person..you just need to learn what love is and then how to love...your still learning and as you get better at it you will find love forever...

Now you just need time to heal..have hope

[blOndie08 in reply to Hidden]

I am not worthy of love, I’ve tried to love myself and I am letting myself down. You don’t know me how do you know I’m such a loving person? I don’t know how to love myself; I’m empty.

[Hidden in reply to blOndie08]

And your not empty..what are you full of? C'mon, what is it..self pity? Jealousy?

[blOndie08 in reply to Hidden]

Yep you got me all figured out now...it’s self pity, jealousy, self hatred, selfishness, etc. I’m out

[Hidden in reply to blOndie08]

Have I upset you

[Hidden]

Yes you are...and if your not worthy of love then what are you looking for ?..ok I'll ask you then..are you a loving person?..

[Hidden]

It pains me to hear that so many people feel like this myself included and no one seems to give a damn unless it’s knocking on their own door

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I give a damn

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I know us suffers do but I’m talking about the people who are healthy and the doctors also. It feels to me like they only help me out of feeling guilty instead of genuinely caring if that makes sense. It sucks because you and I know that mental illness can strike anyone it doesn’t discriminate. It doesn’t care how special or how much you are already going through once it hits you it’s going to be tough and my point is society should start caring because one day you could end up getting hit with an illness and you sure as hell would want help right? That is of course being treated with respect and love cause your a human being not help Me due to feeling guilty about being an asshole if You don’t.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Yep spot on..and you know what..they think they can just prescribe you with a drug/pill so easily to do the job..The person that can help is yourself at the end of the day..I'm glad I went/ going through this cause I'm so much stronger and better person than these people..But that's all right when they get hit they can come to me and you..

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Yea I agree 100%. They give us a label then drug us up with all sorts of meds. Then we have to up the damn dose because our body has built up a tolerance. Tell me are we mentally ill or are people just treating us like crap? No amount of damn pills I swallow will heal my broken soul when the underlying issue is I’m being ostracized. You want to know something those same people who viewed me as stupid and disabled showed the same signs as me so the question is are they stupid and disabled also? People need to realize that we don’t choose to be this way for attention, which I think is absurd. They just need to take responsibility and know that their cruel actions is what cause us these damn anxiety disorder and stop blaming us that we built it up ourselves or it runs in the family. Yes it does run in the family why? Because our parents or anyone else who suffers probably went through traumatic experiences also. Anyone who says otherwise is clueless and are probably in a very fortunate circumstance.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Look everyone has else an illness one sort or another...they treat us like crap because they are crap, like you said..and only if we let them to..they are not fortunate..Karma will get them back..although for us we learn and grow wiser and stronger and deal with what we have and help others and etc..

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Very true!

[blOndie08 in reply to Hidden]

I understand what you’re saying. I had to quit seeing my therapist because I lost my insurance when I lost my job. It felt like I was making headway until then. I hate changing doctors especially therapists so I’ve not seen anyone since February. I feel like all she said about “really caring” about me was all lies; just another let down.

[Hidden in reply to blOndie08]

You ain’t alone I’ve been there it’s like I rather take care of myself like going for walks, enjoying Mother Nature, playing my piano, and reading positive self help book because when I went to go get help most of the times it seems like they don’t care.

[gogogirl in reply to blOndie08]

We have a horrible system if you are in the USA- no insurance- no doctor. We need universal of some sort. Call your rep from congress.

[Hidden]

Yep..mine said she didn't know how to help me further..that's why we Will eventually work it out on our own ..we were capable of causing it to our selves so capable of solving it o..

[mysmugcat]

I understand. and can sympathise. You do deserve love. If people make you feel you don't they are wrong.

I found an amazing friend in someone who has more severe mental health illnesses than me, funny, I was looking in the wrong places for a friend. Well I had friends but they didn't understand or let me down. re. relationships my friend says she doesn't need a man-she is hetrosexual, what she means is she is OK in herself. This is not a sexist comment, it could be either sex. She has worked on herself in therapy etc.

[blOndie08]

Thank you all for your responses; my recent meltdown is over. Yes we need proper healthcare for everyone that’s equal in service. Our society is based on greed, power and sex not necessarily in that order