So since being back at my apartment—

[Ubud2021]

I have been all over the place. Because of my emotions. I mean, I have 0 ketamine treatment in my body now, still adjusting to med change, learning to be completely alone again, dealing with my family shutting me out, blocking my number, and not having support at the lowest time in my life.

The cops showed up at my house this morning, well... 4 cop cars, 2 ambulances, and 2 fire trucks... I was in an instant panic attack when I opened my door. I didn’t know what was going on. And some guy had a weird mask he looked like someone from a bomb squad!! (Over time, I realized he wasn’t tho). My mom called the cops and told them I had overdosed today. -which, no. I absolutely did not. So I had to talk to the cops and detectives for about an hour. My days been weird. It got hard after that because I just explained literally everything to them, and after it’s like a fresh wound because you had to re live it all by telling the whole story again...

I was looking through some pictures. I had found a tiny little encouraging quote I wrote for myself. And I really needed to see it right now. I tell ya, the world does truly have your back. Even when it doesn’t feel like it. You just gotta try.

[SarcasmIsFun]

whoa! that is a seriously weird day. I don't know what your experience was with the cops and medical personnel was like but I know that the ones I've dealt with turned out to be my biggest supporters. I have been constantly surprised and enlightened by the kindness of complete strangers. I hope tomorrow is a lot less weird for you.

[Ubud2021 in reply to SarcasmIsFun]

Thank you. Haha it was so weird!! I did have a pleasant time with them. They were very understanding and especially one of the guys was very sympathetic towards me, even though he knows my mother and her wife from work. (They both work at the jail) except my mom hasn’t been working for a few months due to the pandemic... she can’t go in and do groups and they haven’t set up Skype sessions yet. —anyway, whether this guy was trained to be very sympathetic or not, I was grateful for him. He comforted me in many ways. And assured me they can help me if I need any help. They were very kind, just as you found as well. And thank you! I hope it’s not so weird either 😂🥴