I want to stop worrying about online schooling

[Starrlight]

I just heard it said that schools may continue to be going online to learn come September... that’s a huge responsibility!!! And I am not good with technology...and so far it’s been online but no pressure of coming on and work being graded. So now it is scaring me because I have been homeschooling my kids and I’m not sure I have what it takes to keep up with the online technology for schooling ...the thought sends me spiraling down ... I know if that’s the case I have no choice but I can’t seem to stop worrying about it. I just want to not think about it. It may or may not be ... any tips on not worrying and staying in the present?

[kenster1]

star the kids are probably better with technology than us mine are anyway 10 and 8 we are only really helping with difficult questions it will be ok.

[Starrlight in reply to kenster1]

I think my 12 year old could be okay with some help but there’s always been a problem when I try to follow directions for getting my 8 year old on his blackboard school site.

Thanks for responding Kenster. I’m sure it will be easier than I imagine if that is I even need to... I assume the school can expect that some parents will be having trouble and recently a teacher told me it wouldn’t be fair to grade when not everyone has available platforms to be able to keep up...

Are your kids doing video classrooms?

[kenster1 in reply to Starrlight]

no just the teacher sending it online.

[Downandout123]

I wouldn't worry about it too much. I have read a lot of your posts, plus responses to other posts. You seem like the type of person who can handle anything that comes your way!😊

[Starrlight in reply to Downandout123]

Downandout, I thank you so much! Your words make me happy and encouraged. No matter what ends up happening maybe it will all be alright. ❤️

[Downandout123 in reply to Starrlight]

You're welcome, and 'm SURE it will!! 👍

[Rachel2535]

Oh I get you! I have five at home now since the schools closed. I used to homeschool the kids three years ago put them back into school. So now two high schoolers, two middle schoolers and a special needs 5th grader are under my tutelage :). I have found that the schools have been so lenient and helpful with trying to get them all on track. Still it is a big responsibility. Make sure you take time to yourself and remember at home they learn so much more then they would at school so even if you think they didn’t learn a thing odds are they did . Praying school starts on time in the fall. -Rachel

[Starrlight in reply to Rachel2535]

Thanks Rachel! Wow you’ve got your hands full. I like your positive attitude and you are right they are learning lots and I too hope school reopens in fall... I’m trying to enjoy spring and summer with them but I’m so depressed and anxious and that makes me feel guilt and that I’m wasting good time but all I can do is my best to be emotionally healthy. I hate myself right now. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I just had a phone session with my psychiatrist and told him I was not very safe and he said I can call crisis care but I won’t. I can’t talk to my family really I just feel low and guilty. I’m miserable. Maybe it will lift. I just want to be alone like an animal trying to find a peaceful spot to die in. I’m obviously not in a good place. I’ll keep trying. Hope you are feeling well. Hope you and your family are happy.

[Rachel2535 in reply to Starrlight]

We have our bad days too. And I am so glad you are reaching out to your counselor. But if that is not providing everything you need try thehopeline.com. They have a ton of free resources. Also I spent years hating myself, I mean 25 years it is a hard place to be. My faith in Jesus brought me out of the deep hole, I mean I always believed but the the cause of my depression and self loathing was deep seeded and until I dealt with that I was a prisoner to self hate. You are beautifully and wonderful made. Don’t believe the lies your brain is telling you because it is not true. Seek truth. I am praying.