Falling apart

[PackerGirl]

Hello - Today, I seem to be falling apart. I can’t stop crying, I feel panicked and unhinged really. I’m in so much physical pain from an issue that I need surgery for but can’t have yet due to the pandemic. If I’m up, all I feel is overwhelming pain. I’m used to kidney stones, which are very unpleasant but this is painful and uncomfortable, if that makes sense. I’ve been taking pain pills, as prescribed but the second I awake after taking one I’m immediately in pain again and just start sobbing. I feel like being in this cycle is clearly making my depression worse as well. I don’t know what I need but I thought maybe some words of support might help? I’m all alone in this and could use some help...

[mrmonk]

Hello,

I'm sorry that a health issue is causing you so much pain. I can't imagine the kind of pain you must be in if you are taking medication for it, but I do understand the discomfort and the psychological distress of not having a physical issue resolved.

I feel I'm falling apart today, too.

So, I guess the only support I can muster is my commiseration and to say you aren't alone in feeling this way.

[Jason_16]

I'm sorry that you feel this much pain, I understand from experience how phyiscal pain can feel overwhelming and dominate your life. Try and focus on the future and how once the pandemic calms down you can go get your surgery and feel great afterward. You are not alone in your struggles but we will all get better eventually.

[PackerGirl]

Thanks for your responses! I appreciate the validation, helps with my self doubt. ❤️

[Hidden]

Hi there, I too hear you. Physical pain can really affect your mental and psychological state so know that it is normal and okay to feel the way that you do. I'm sorry that you have not been able to get the proper medical care -- I have a friend in a similar boat. Luckily, her surgery was just rescheduled albeit not for 3 more weeks (who knows if another shut down will happen between now and then). It makes one wonder what "essential" really is if people are home writhing in pain. Makes absolutely no sense to have this suffering.

Please hang in there. Have you tried meditation or chanting? I do some hardcore endurance sport and sometimes that has helped me through pain as I refuse to take pain medication during those events (or training for them). I hope you get some relief soon.

[pink318]

Hello,

I’m sorry that you are in so much pain. I hope you can have some relief soon.

May God’s comfort and healing be upon you.

Stay safe. Keep us posted.