Just trying to figure out what's been going on for years.

[soupboy]

Hi. I've been struggling with a certain sort of "detachment" for years. As a child, and now continuing into my teen years, I have had certain people with distinct individuality talk to me that no one else seems to see. I also have symptoms of memory loss when they "take over" my body (i.e., laughing hysterically, banging the table, continuing their conversations with me out loud). It doesn't quite fit in with anything I could find, and I've never had any sort of severe trauma. I can go for hours talking to them, and some of them have said some quite distressing things that have culminated in me doing some horrible things to myself. I've been previously diagnosed with severe OCD, anxiety, insomnia, and clinical suicidal depression. (If it helps at all, I had a phobia of guns and open doors (for some reason) as a child.)

Just thought that possibly someone could help me out.

Have a wonderful day, all of you. You can do this, however cheesy it sounds. Be a fighter. Look at the cute dog on the street or your friend's bad singing voice and live for those beautiful, little things.

[scarr6]

Wow. I have not personally had an experience like that, so really wish I could be more helpful! Have you talked to a doctor or therapist and gotten any insight from them? When they "take over" how aware of what's going on are you?

[Ubud2021]

Have you talked to a therapist about these people you see and how they take over your body? Especially if they have said severely distressing things to you that after you had hurt yourself... This definitely has to be talked about.

I understand we as the individuals want to do research and try to figure out what it is. Because who wants to know more about what is happening with us, more than us? It’s hard not finding the right answers that you search for.

There are multiple different mental disorders, in multiple forms and severities, that the internet does not explain. I’ve tried researching the type of OCD I had for so long. I ended up driving myself crazy, because nothing was exactly how things state they are. I have different kinds with different factors that aren’t really on the internet.

I would recommend talking to a therapist about what is going on. And then they can help you understand it when they have enough information.

I’ve learned it’s all about being open and honest. Even if it’s scary.

PS -I really appreciate your little note at the bottom of your post! It made me smile and realize I need to be looking for more cute pups 😉 I hope you have a great night!

[cmore]

Definitely see a Psychiatrist and be open and honest. They should be able to prescribe a medication to help you with that. It’s the same as going to a regular MD for a heart issue or a MD for diabetes. No matter how you feel you might be the only person with a problem, there are hundreds if not thousands of people who have the same thing.