Hey,
So I’m seeing a new therapist, and he suggested I find an online social anxiety support group, since I can’t really meet anyone right now cause of the virus. Not that I could have before anyways, since I’m socially awkward. I have 2 friends but no one I can really connect with emotionally. Everyone else either ditched me or tried to fix me and gave up.
I’m also diagnosed bipolar type 2 and currently on Lithium and Trazadone. Don’t know if they are working, but I do feel less sad nowadays. Also feel less motivated to do things as well. That might be due to age or giving up cause I’ve failed so many times.
Been a sort of job-hopper because I either don’t really care for the work or I got fired for not playing the politics game. I applied to pharmacy school a few years back and got offered interviews, but I decided not to go. Think my stint at 3M, broke me mentally because I was being ignored and given no work. Part of it is my fault for trying not to fit in.
Now, I’m working as a physical therapy aide to work on my soft skills. I program when I’m home because my new passion is the tech field. Think this one is it. Just feels weird that I have to lie about pursuing PT while I’m at work.
I just want to be happy again, not afraid of a conversation, and to become a coder. Anyways, hello again everyone.