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[Fallen_angel94]

Hey everyone, I am new on here. My name is Fallen_angel 94. So a little bit about myself. I will turn 26 on May 21. I suffer severe anxiety ,depression & obsessive compulsive disorder. I didn't always know this but I only found out in the last couple of years now. Growing up I always wondered what the hell was wrong with me. I would always be moody & irritated for no reason. Angry about life and scared too. I was quiet the downer you could say. I always just thought it was my teenage phase & that it would go away... and then it didn't. So here I am in all my shame. Hope to meet some friends real soon. Have a great day

[Waiting4themoon]

Hi Fallen_angel94,

Welcome to this forum. So many lovely people here I’m sure you will feel heard and meet many friends.

You mention that you are ‘here in all your shame’.

Please know that you have nothing to be ashamed of. Nothing at all. You chose the name ‘angel’. I suspect that you know that you are an angel. It is just that you have allowed other people’s judgement of you to feel that you are fallen and ashamed.

I think that people who struggle with anxiety, depression etc are special. Usually way more sensitive, thoughtful and deep. Other people unfortunately don’t get it. They just want to skim the surface of life and don’t like people who break their dreamworld.

You didn’t ask for anxiety, depression and OCD. It is just something that you have. Counselling / therapy and often medication can go a long way to alleviating the symptoms and bring some degree of control to one’s life.

I read a really good book a few years ago that opened my eyes. It is called ‘Soul without shame’ by Byron Brown.

Take care and be well 😀

[Fallen_angel94 in reply to Waiting4themoon]

Hi Waiting4themoon, thank you. I really appreciate your kind words. Thank you for encouraging me as I have not been okay for some years now. But as you probably know every battle is it's own fight. And some do make you stronger

[kenster1]

hi and a warm welcome to you fallen angel lets hope by being on the forum we can help you find your angel wings and you can fly high again soon.

[Fallen_angel94 in reply to kenster1]

Hi Kenster1 , thank you. Your words are kind and I appreciate them

[Hidden]

Welcome. We share the same diagnosis.

[Fallen_angel94 in reply to Hidden]

Hi deepthinker, thank you. It's great that there are people out there that one can relate to. Hope we can help each other

[Hidden]

Hi,

How did you find out you had these conditions?

[Fallen_angel94]

Hi Fibrofoggy , I used to belong to a site called ocd tribe. I came across the site by accident while looking up signs & symptoms for psychological conditions. After reading up on things like ocd, anxiety & depression, I realized I have much of all the symptoms. So I joined the site. It was on this site that I properly came to know what my problems were. Before knowing of my conditions I suffered a great deal & to tell you the truth knowing doesn't help anymore than not knowing. So yeah that's my story.