Surprisingly decently okay

[Scatteredtulips]

I feel like the last few days I’ve been relatively okay. Managing without focusing myself on doing so. I’m not consciously trying to keep my mind off of negative stuff or triggers. It’s happening. I don’t know if it’s class work keeping me busy today or work or if I really am just getting better with controlling my thoughts and mind from wandering.

It’s not to say I’m doing good or great. I’m just trying. And I think that’s something we can all say is just as good. Not to say I’m feeling great about myself or thinking positively, none of that. I wish! But no I’ve just been maintaining my mind, in a way.

If this is somewhat subconscious or just takes little effort to trigger myself to do, then that’s great. It shows I’ve made progress to protect myself from bullshit!! Finally some progress I can identify.

Now I want to be able to feel good about myself, love myself, have some self confidence, lose the self doubt. God I just want that! A happy positive mindset not letting anything, made up in my mind, take me down.

I just want to get there now. It’s my checkpoint before I can continue in this game of life lol

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Good for you. I would that count that as a success as well.

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Well done

BOB

[kenster1]

glad to hear it the more days you are ok the chances are that will improve more.

[sponge42]

I see you are taking great steps in trying to improve yourself emotionally, spiritually and mentally. That is something to be proud of. You are correct, it takes one day at a time to stay positive and meet each goal. Keep trucking! You can do it!