I'm not suicidal

[froggie_boi]

when people find out that im depressed they usually ask me if im ok. obviously im not ok but that doesnt mean that i self harm or that im suicidal. what i feel i really cant explain; i dont want to kill myself and i definitely would never consider it as an option but i do think that it would be easier if i just dissaper. like what if i could just evaporate into thin air and not be remembered. i also think a lot of what happens after death.... is it heaven and hell? or reincarnation? or is it just a nothingness a total peace? i guess i'll never know untill i die. i also think about the fact that im not that good of a person so would i even make the cut for heaven? or if i reincarnate i would be even more damned because i would probably live an even worse life than the one that im living now (like instead of having mental pain maybe i would indure physical pain as well) but ill never know and that is quite scary.

[Tellmeaboutit]

well, first of all, you are “that good of a person.” im not particularly religious, but i respect your beliefs, and if youre chrostian, i understand them: by admitting tour sins and asking forgiveness, you are saved. isnt that how it works?

as for people thinking that you might be suicidal, ya ive had that problem too. just lie to them. “ya im fine, but thanks for asking.” some people cant handle the truth. dont even tell your average co-worker or acquaintance or extended familly that tou are depressed. but dont keep it in, either. share it with your immediate family, dr/counselor, and your good friends. including all your good friends here!