Lorazepam or Diazepam?

[Anzanddepreshgirl]

Does anyone here takes Lorazepam or Diazepam? My Clonazepam lost its effect after using 4mg a day w 20mg of fluoxetine. Now it only makes effect controlling anxiety if I take 8mg in the morning .

I screwed up trying to kill myself a thousand times taking Clonazepam sometimes a whole pack of pills, so I guess my body created tolerance . I've been more than 100 without trying to hurt or kill myself and I don't want it anymore, just wanted to control this fucking anxiety and live in peace, I want to start my college this year and get a job, I feel so sad about having anxiety and how it screws my life .

I made an appointment with a psychiatrist but is only for day 25/03 I want a medication to control anxiety until there, then I can study and live . I have access to these medications without prescription, because in Brazil an appointment is very expensive and public institutions are a joke. So I was using this advantage to only buy for the medication and keep taking my ansiolitic and antidepressant. Help???

[Pugglesworth]

I'm not a doctor, but I'll give you my experience.

Ativan (Lorazepam) and Klonopin (Clonazepam) I currently have scripts for. Ativan is a quick acting benzodiazepine (benzo) that I use for panic attacks. Klonopin is a longer acting benzo that I use as needed for rough days, hard meetings at work and so on. Quarter milligram (mg) dosage.

It sounds to me like you're self-dosing (dangerous) and using benzos inappropriately (dangerous). This is not the avenue for you to get the help you require. I don't know anything about Brazil, but it sounds as if you do need a doctor and the ER is the quickest way in the states to access one.

I would make seeing a doctor as quickly as possible your top priority and not your studies.

[Anzanddepreshgirl in reply to Pugglesworth]

Thank you for worrying , I'm not self medicating, I was prescribed to use it twice a day and I continued for 2 years w the same psychiatrist that said that everything was fine. Then I traveled to the state I'm right now w all my medication to take and a medication in case of panic attack,the same prescribed by a psychiatrist .

But I'm in a small town and I've been here for 2 months and there's no money to pay a doctor,the public doctor prescribed me alprazolam 2mg to sleep but the same medication isn't making a huge difference . I only accepted cause the day before going on this doctor I spent a whole night awake, I took my usual pill of Clonazepam 2 mg and didn't work, so I tried 2 more pills of it to try to sleep , I'm desperate .

And my appointment with a psychiatrist is day 25 of March, I was asking about these medications cause before going to the appointment I don't wanna keep being with a medication that doesn't work anymore . My days with anxiety are hell and seems just like a l

[Anzanddepreshgirl in reply to Anzanddepreshgirl]

Loop of the same day, I don't want to spend the time between this Thursday (that is the day that I go back home) and 25 of March in agony

[Pugglesworth in reply to Anzanddepreshgirl]

Anxiety can be 'hell' if we let it. It's fabricated by our mind and when we buy into the stories it becomes a vicious loop. Before you know it, we're in a 'habit' of anxiety: a learned behavior from training our mind to be so. And it takes time to unlearn that.

Have you done any simple breath work? Do you know any other anxiety techniques such as tapping or EMDR?

[UFC80 in reply to Pugglesworth]

Hello! I have a question. So do you believe that long standing anxiety daily can cause physical symptoms and even feeling ill?

[Anzanddepreshgirl in reply to UFC80]

Well, once I tried withdrawal by myself from Clonazepam and on the third day in the middle of the night I had stomach ache, thought I was with bowel problems too and forced vomit cause I had bad nausea . I only got better when my dad , that also suffer from anxiety told me that this was abstinence,so I took some drops of the liquid version of the Clonazepam , and had to go back to where I started.

[Pugglesworth in reply to UFC80]

Anxiety causes physical symptoms and illness when it is chronic. This is not a belief: it is a fact.

[Anzanddepreshgirl in reply to Pugglesworth]

Thank you so much! I'm rethinking and I will try natural stuff such as curcuma with lemon juice to calm myself , primrose evening oil and lavender essencial oil. Oh and cutting off candies cause they can make cortisol go up and make the anxiety worse. I decided that I will only use what the doctor prescribe to me , until there I will battle against anxiety. I want to live a long life and be happy and I will conquer it!!!

[NurseLV]

Be careful; with that dose of that type of medication, stopping suddenly can cause seizures.