Can you help me

[Mewe1]

I need help my dad passed away 1 year ago and my life is hell now. all i can thank about is killing myself i feel like a lost both my dad and mom

And a hate myself

[Hidden]

I know this feeling all too well. My birth father never bothered with me, I was 21 when he passed and at 31 I lost my loving and best friend mom, that has been 31 years for my mom...please don't give up..

If you would like pm .. I'm here for you and have so much compassion for you.........

Sparkles & dump trucks of groovy love, peace, light, joy & hugs Mewe1!

[Poodie in reply to Hidden]

Hi Peachy.

I am sorry. That is so hard to deal with.

❤️

[LadyZen]

Death is pretty traumatic. Have you met with a grief counselor yet.

[Mewe1 in reply to LadyZen]

I will not go to therapy

[hypercat54]

Why do you hate yourself?

[Mewe1 in reply to hypercat54]

I feel like its my fault

[hypercat54 in reply to Mewe1]

Would you feel the same way with a physical illness? Why won't you go to therapy? Do you prefer to feel like this? The devil you know maybe. x

[Poodie]

Hi Mewe,

Oh I am so sorry for your loss. I know when I die I want my family to go on finding love and happiness in life. I am sure your dad would want that for you. Please stop thinking about killing yourself. Did you say your mom died too? Or is she mourning and unavailable to you. It is so hard.

Parents are parents forever. It goes both ways.

Let yourself grieve and mourn. Cry if and when you have too. Go to a grief support group. There is one on line.

This is so important. You have to face your loss and sadness to get through it to a better place. As much as we want to, we can not avoid mourning. It is not worth it not to face feelings especially feelings of sadness and loss.

Best thoughts and hopes for you . Keep posting and let us know how you are. ❤️

[jesca18]

I know what you are going through. *Hugs* I can completely relate to feeling like you’ve lost both parents after one passes. My mom passed when I was 9. I am now 30. I’m tempted to lie and tell you that it will all get better but my mother being gone still effects my life to this day. There are going to be times throughout your life when you miss your dad like crazy. It won’t feel like reality.. you’ll be in denial. But you learn to live with it. I’m so sorry for your loss. An upside is, it will show you how strong of a person you are having to deal with such a hardship.

Also don’t allow what happens to you to make you cold. This world needs your love.

Oh and I deal with hating myself also. It didn’t take therapy for me to figure out that I have abandonment issues. Even though it obviously wasn’t our parents choice to leave us, we can still feel abandoned. This results in low self esteem, low worth, low confidence etc

Turn your focus on helping others. What good can come from the tragedy? Giving to others will be rewarding to yourself.

[Mewe1 in reply to jesca18]

Thank you so much

[jesca18 in reply to Mewe1]

💛

[kenster1]

hi I am really sorry to hear of your dads passing and your suffering god bless you and your dear dad.my dad passed coming up 2 years my mum 10 years.with my dad ive been preoccupied with other issues to dig deep to even know how I feel about it all.one thing for certain we had a difficult relationship till 2010 but we made up I know despite our problems he would want me to keep going through life and ride every storm that comes my way and that is what you have to do as well.we have another forum on here in case you didn't know called bereavement care and share and its a great little community very supportive and understanding.it maybe of added support to you but its good to talk when things get to much.god bless and take care.