I am here and want to help and maybe you can help me.

[Jorja70]

I may not have the key to unlock the solution to your problem, but I'm here if you need a sounding board or just someone to listen. I deal with my problem so much I need a distraction. I know there are a lot of people that have problems worst than I have had. I am a Christian woman that was molested when I was 4 yrs old, raped at 20, numerous losses of dear ones, shot at with my baby in my arms, lied to by so many people I trusted, taunt and teased by a few and that's just a small glimpse of my life. I'm a good friend. I will never hurt anyone deliberately. Have tried 4 different meds and none work for me. Once with therapy and was not helped. So between God and my journal and my cat, I am alone with my depression. I have never thought of harming myself and really doubt I ever will. I wait for God to take me when He's ready. Sometimes prayers work. Sometimes it doesn't because I won't leave it to God to fix. But if you need me, I'm here.

[Jorja70]

No they don't. And there isn't anything you can heal on your own. You need someone's help whatever the problem is. I have needed a hand from someone for a long time and a lot of the time that hand was snatched back. I never asked for blood or money, just a hand of a friend. Not too many are willing or too scared to ask. Everybody needs somebody. You shouldn't walk this journey of life alone.

[goldieoldie in reply to Jorja70]

hello Jorja,im so sorry to read about your horrendous past and I know that you still have faith despite all your tragic circumstances-also you are offering the hand of friendship ,inspite of your own misfortune-i for one could not refuse that offer,so im hear for you 100 percent---and hope to continue to support you whenever I can-I do sincerely hope you will find some solace within this community.and thankyou for the invitation and opening up too.I know what its like to have no one to turn to ,and thats all we need is someone who will listen and help alleviate your isolation,,,

[Jorja70 in reply to goldieoldie]

Thank you for your kindness. There's not enough of that in this messed up world we inhabit. My life has been a train wreck but I am truly glad to say I have never turned to drugs or alcohol to take the steps thru my life. I had a loving mother and an alcoholic father. (but he did love me). My faith has always been close and sometimes I have neglected it but would always find my way back. But situations still arose and a few were of my making and a lot wasn't. I am a firm believer of for every action there is a re-action, good or bad. I've had a problem with my oldest daughter for 40 years and the scars are there. I had a situation with my late husband and the scar is still there. I had a problem when I was a teenager and that problem is still there. People have told me to forgive them, to take away that power they have and had over me and I would feel better. I have prayed for God to take away the pain of those situations so I could forgive. But,,,,, for some reason those pains won't leave me. So, am just coping one step at a time. I thank you again for your kindness. I would like to have you as a friend.

[Jorja70]

Yes it is. I have been alone in a crowd and by myself. It is a very sad place.

[Gkaneesdoguu]

Can you facetime or Zoom or use Microsoft Teams for example, in order to interact with your relatives and friends in far away places?

[Jorja70]

No I can't. I just have landline and computer with no mic or camera. Sorry. Have same problem with telecalls to Dr. We just talk on phone.

[Hidden in reply to Jorja70]

Oh I understand your point since I will be 69 soon and aside from turning on the computer I know little else.Even though the VA gave me a device an Iron Bow to zoom online but I could not make it work.I ended up like you talking on the phone.I did recently get a flip phone so I guess I am progressing???

[maryze]

I am praying that God shines His light upon you and that you feel protected under His wings. He will never forsake you, or abandon you. With Him in your life it already makes the majority 🥰