What's this feeling?

[Lixus]

Hi,

I posted a "regrets" question 7 days ago where I talk about something I have done and I feel guilty and with a lot of anxiety

The answers I received helped me a lot that day and I learnt I need to forgive myself and try to move forward but I keep having those guilty thoughts and my mind keeps saying me to do the same mistakes I did and I can't because that means to deal anxiety in a wrong way

Do you know if it is time what I need, to forget people related to my mistake?

Do you know if there's something I can do to forgive myself? I know I can't change the past but all this anxiety I'm feeling this days is because of me...

[Hidden]

It may not be the easiest thing to forgive yourself yet if you do a ton will be lifted off your shoulders... I so hope you are able to do this...practice, practice, practice.. it will become easier for you to do... no amount of guilt will change the past and no amount of anxiety will change the future...

I wish you all the best with this.. let me know how you're doing with it all...

Sparkles & dump trucks Lixus!

[Lixus in reply to Hidden]

I'm just afraid of forgiving myself thanks to having forgotten some people, I mean, I "put" myself in a box and put myself apart from people I like and now I want to talk to them but it's too late, I can't do that because of my mistake and how I dealt with anxiety. And I feel that in order to forgive myself I need to forget them and if I do so I would be doing the same mistake over and over again...

[fauxartist]

I think sometimes the best we can do is forgive someone else, but not have to forget what they did to us. We forgive ourselves to move on from some of this as well. I find even though I can forgive someone for what they have done, I will never trust them again, nor should I. If they have a repeat pattern of a behavior that is damaging to us, we don't have to be subjected to it, we put up barriers, and we stay emotionally safe. Don't blame yourself for others bad behavior...that's on them.

[Lixus in reply to fauxartist]

I'm not sure if I understand your message, I'm not blaming myself for others behavior, I'm blaming myself cause I put myself apart from people I like, and now that I "want to be with them" I can't because I realized I screw up this and I shouldn't have done what I did in order to get rid of my anxiety

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to Lixus]

Are you saying you wronged them and want to make amends?

[Lixus in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

No, they don't know anything about my obsessive disorder or my guilty thoughts, last year, when I met them, I put myself apart from them because of my anxiety and because I though they didn't want me as a friend, and now I feel guilty because they weren't feeling that way and I can't be with them because they know now eachother and I'm just (as I think, they don't say this but is the way I see the situation) the shy, weird guy who never speaks to anyone (because I put myself apart) I talk to them, yes, but just as a partner.

I regret how I dealt with my anxiety, I was just a coward and instead of talking this and try to trust them I just run away

[Hidden]

Dear, no one is perfect, everyone makes mistakes. Just forgive yourself now, and go on with your life❤️