Hi.. I guess u can tell y’all the truth. I’m manic so bare with me.. so, i have BiPolar 1, PTSD, and ADD.. I’m prescribed
Lemotrogine
Adderall
Xanax
Trazadone
Lithium
And seroquel
I attempted suicide and was held on a 51/50 two weeks ago. He (by bf) had to find me in his bathroom. He had to remember. He had to take me and had to see me strapped down and stripped of my clothes.
Dr still says we just need to find the right “cocktail”
My mania hurts people. I act out sexually, I put myself in dangerous situations and I hardly remember ever when I do it. But my boyfriend remembers it all. And I’m going to lose him..my only support if I don’t get this under control
I’m feeling helpless that I’ll never feel ok.
My mania is getting worse as I get older and I want to hear there is hope I’m 33 and want to start living. I need help and to know I’m not alone.
Sorry if this is too much. I’m new here
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you are not alone. you are not too much. i am a 36 yr old female with OCD, depression, anxiety, complex ptsd, bi-polar? borderline? i was on many 'cocktails' over the decades. i became a drug addict and an alcoholic too. i put myself in dangerous and reckless situations. i acted out. i blacked out. i hurt myself. eventually i moved back home and enrolled myself in a recovery program and 12 week dbt course. i am far from solid but i am sooooo much better than i was 3 years ago. i don't have great advice except to have a harm reduction plan - what is the safest thing for you to do when you are manic? can someone support you? who and what environments should you avoid? do you have a psychologist/psychiatrist? don't give up on yourself! feel free to reach out to me...
Hello. You are not alone and you are not “too much”. Many of us have been in similar situations — I have treatment resistant depression, anxiety disorder, etc — your doctor is right, the right mix of meds may we’ll be the answer for you. Unfortunately finding that mix takes time. PLEASE stick with it, give yourself the chance you deserve.
Yes! Yes! Yes! Give yourself the time you deserve. Please. I hope your boyfriend sticks with you. But please don’t get mad at yourself if he can’t. He is there now and helping. Good.
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