When it didnt hurt

[Dachs]

I was thinking today...when was the last time life felt good? No depression. No anxiety. No loneliness. Just roll out of bed in the morning and greet the day. The answer for me is a long time. Even in childhood i was painfully shy and socially awkward. Seems like everyday has just been more and more depression and loneliness....more and more it weighs me down without change. Anyone else feel like this is the way they have always been?

[Wxman]

I can relate. I was also a shy kid and my depression began in my early adolescence. I've had times of happiness with no depression but I think most of my life my baseline has been mild depression. Manageable but still sucks

[Bcrawford16]

I can relate too. I’ve had social anxiety for a long time and was a very shy kid. However the last time I can remember being happy was at 15 before my grandpa passed. After that depression set in and anxiety has only gotten worse over the years. Some days it’s hard to work and other days I just want to lay in bed all day and isolate myself from the world.

[Hidden]

I can't remember an age without pain and abuse. I don't think I have ever been happy. I don't know any other way but trudge though the crap and to keep going. It's really sad.

[BlueQQ in reply to Hidden]

Same here

[tolisten]

I ask myself that question now and then. I do have some mornings where I don't feel so down. Those mornings usually are due to a decent dream while sleeping. Sounds odd, but true. Unfortunately those mornings are few and far between. I've also grown up a shy kid. I think being shy makes you vulnerable to depression. You don't feel understood by others, and don't have the skills to make meaningful relationships as well as the more outgoing types.

[Hidden]

I was a shy kid who grew into an even shyer adult. Some days I do not see any reason to get out of bed since I do not see a chance of this situation changing for me . It's more loneliness and more isolation. I hope that it changes for you.

[Poodie]

Hi Dachs,

Never felt bounce out of bed happy. I am, however much better then I was and I get by o k. It is all relative I suppose. I try to just move along and function as best I can. Medicine I take for depression really helps and I have had good therapy but it never takes it all away. I am the same person with depression, anxiety, and long-standing PTSD.

Thanks for posting.