Think of the person you will be this date of the upcoming years
have been dreading this date for a few days , i remembered that 1/9/2019 was a horrible day , i had a severe aura migraine that day which caused an extreme panic attack and was going to be hospitalized , i was home alone and i really never felt fear as much as that day , my migraine was so severe maybe due to the stress it got even worse to a point i couldnt form words it was really scary i litteraly started praying
Thats why i was worried about it , because ever since my 1 year mark with this anxiety disorder, i have been relapsing every time i get these memories that i had thought i overcome
But today was an exception , i woke up feeling good , and unlike last year , and quite the opposite of it , i went out wasnt home , i was with family and friends not alone , and as the day ended i saw a picture from last year , i guess i took it to show myself how bad i looked , i was pale , in tears , just fed up with everything and i was hopeless thinking nothing will ever be fixed , as every time i say im not at 100% but again who is , we all have our struggles and i still fight those struggles every day
FOCUS ON THE IDEA ...THE PERSON YOU WILL BE ON THIS DAY NEXT YEAR , , regardless of how bad you are feeling now, it wont last , life is a rollercoaster and we are never dealing with the same problems , things change, we get stronger , we find new problems , new solutions , it takes time , it takes efforts but i really believe wheather you want to or not , wheather you believe or not , it will get better , its as cliche as it sounds but its true and its as simple as that , EVENTUALLY IT GETS BETTER ..