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[Fall1224]

I woke up this morning with a racing heart & mind. I feel like such a “freak.” I feel so pathetic! I question if I will be ever to overcome this! Will I ever be “normal.” Will I ever be “happy?”

[X01WOOG]

What makes you feel like a freak?

[HJam5880]

I know it seems impossible right now but we WILL overcome this together. I struggle with depression and anxiety, and I’m in a major depressive episode right now.

[Fall1224 in reply to HJam5880]

How do you keep going? How do you stay positive?

[HJam5880 in reply to Fall1224]

It’s hard and there are days when I want to stay in bed. I have found that what keeps me going is the kids that I do community service work with. When I see their smiling faces, it makes me happy. I also have a med consult on Thursday to see if I need a vitamin or if I need an antidepressant or maybe even both. The kids are what is helping me right now, but it isn’t a fix. I’m not going to pretend like I know the answer because I don’t, I still majorly struggle on a daily basis, but I always feel a little better when I see the kids. I have to remind myself that there is an end to these feelings and that soon I will feel better. I am determined to do whatever it takes to feel better.

[conquestofhappiness]

I have stayed up the entire night last night due to panic attack. I have been struggling for 9 years and i am still not losing hope. if you feel sad, you can always find support here.

[Fall1224 in reply to conquestofhappiness]

Any suggestions on how to manage?

[conquestofhappiness in reply to Fall1224]

I have young kids and old parents to take care of , so my responsibility keeps me going forward. I wrote to a friend today in the forum, we talked about should we fight against negative feeling or let it out. i hope it can help you manage your depression. Frankly, i think Morita therapy is a really good approach:

I carefully thought about this question before. My choice is to let it out, don't try to push it away. My experience is that, the more I tried to push it away, the more depressed I became. I read around a lot after I got depression and anxiety.

There is a famous therapist called Morita Masatake, and his method is called Morita therapy. His idea is that, when a symptom appears, the more we want to fight against it and control it, the more we'd aggravate our inner conflict, and the more we'd feel painful.

He suggested treating your depressed mood like a natural occurrence, just like the change of four seasons or the different weathers. sometimes you get summer, sometimes there is winter, sometimes there is sunshine, and sometimes there is rain. Just let your emotion flow, let admit them, and then ** important** , keep on doing the things that you are supposed to do, with your symptoms!! don't really lie down and got defeated by your symptoms, but don't fight against it. Just do what you are supposed to do with your symptoms.

I hope this helps. and i know it is always easier to say than to carry out. I just go a major panic attack last night. Let's work hard together!

[Astrogrrl77]

You are NOT a freak. You are NOT alone. We are all on here because we share a similar struggle and we can help lift each other up. There is always hope if you are still breathing and “normal” is underrated. Be the unique you. So many people who are walking a similar road are right here with you to help you talk things through.

[Elocin303]

I understand. I wake up panicked too. You are not a freak. I promise. The mornings are the hardest for me.

[Fall1224 in reply to Elocin303]

Is there anything you do in the morning that helps you?

[Elocin303 in reply to Fall1224]

Honestly, putting one foot in front of the other. Positive Self-talk, prayer, and my kids keep me moving because I have to. It’s not easy. I understand how you feel and I’m sorry you’re in this season. You’re not alone.

[NeuronerdDoaty]

You are normal. Look at the world. Look at people. We aren’t the freaks. The people with their heads buried in the sand are the freaks. You’re normal. It’s a cold mean world. We have to stand together.

[Fall1224]

I just feel so exhausted!

[Shutterbug65]

Many times I wake up feeling the same way. My mornings are always the worst time of day for me, I’m caught in this cycle of negativity, and like you I don’t feel good about myself. I don’t have the answers but I know how you feel. Just keep moving forward day by day. Try and think about the people you have in your life, and those who care about you. You can overcome this but it takes time.