Life message

[Thelonewolf22]

Life is stupid everyone should die

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One Lone Wolf to another. Going to private message you.

[Sunshine425]

Life is super hard sometimes... And it breaks my heart that you're in a dark place to come out with a statement like this.

When you want some support, let us know.

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Sunshine425]

Kill me that’s how you can support me

[hypercat54]

Life is what it is and all we have.

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to hypercat54]

So nothing? Cool

[Dolphin14]

That's a very negative thought. It's sad you feel you should not be here. With all the troubles in the world that's a pretty serious statement.

I hope you get some help for yourself and find some peace.

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Dolphin14]

I’ve been hoping my whole life and can’t get it right so

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Dolphin14]

Also nothing will help everything is corrupt

[Dolphin14 in reply to Thelonewolf22]

What is corrupt?

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Dolphin14]

The way people treat mental health. I have been through 6 therapists, 3 psychiatrists, been to many programs and they are all so corrupt. They teach you things that aren’t realistic in using at my utter time of need and everything that will bring you that short term relief that helps you is illegal

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Dolphin14]

They only want money and don’t care about you

[Dolphin14 in reply to Thelonewolf22]

Like any other job there are people that do it well and those that don't.

I've been fortunate to find a team that helps me.

What is the illegal part?

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Dolphin14]

Suicide and weed. I get why some drugs are illegal because they cause a lot more harm to you for a long period of time, but there’s a stigma and an illegal part around those two. And honestly I wish they would allow you to take yourself out and set up services like that just so people have a way out like me. My life isn’t getting any better I’m not getting any better even when I’m trying so I’m just stuck

[Dolphin14 in reply to Thelonewolf22]

What are you doing to try and make it better? What is a typical day like for you?

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Dolphin14]

Having two jobs in things that should be meaningful to me (music and coaching), trying to make a music career for myself, going to therapy and psychiatry, but still I can’t find any joy in anything. The hope of love and having a family is the only thing that gets me up to do those things. I do everything with a hope to have that, but when your heart has been broken so many times and you’ve been played and you’re the bad guy in so many eyes those things lose purpose. They want to fire me from coaching because I coach the right way and I have panic attacks that I can’t control. So ya know what’s the point

[Dolphin14]

You certainly keep busy.

How do you know love is not out there for you?

Coaching is a tough job if you have to listen to parents. What do you coach and what age?

Do you teach music?

When we are depressed it's hard to enjoy our passions that's for sure.

We have a choice to keep fighting. To get our life back, to be happy. I'm not over here doing cartwheels of happiness but I've done a lot of work to gain my life back. It's a lot of work.

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Dolphin14]

I have too but I’m going backwards. Because of how many people have left me. I coach all ages and it’s not the parents it’s my boss that the kids don’t like and is mean to them. And no I work at guitar center for discounts basically to make my own music thing go

[Dolphin14 in reply to Thelonewolf22]

The poor kids, they need guidance not someone they don't like. Takes the joy out of the whole thing. I would say they are lucky to have you.

You have a potential career in music. That's a positive. Do you have a group? Or solo?

I'm sorry people have left you. I've been through that too. But, there's a whole big world out there.

[Saltwater]

I can relate to your pain but I wonder is some of your anguish caused by not loving yourself enough? You seem to focus on your life with someone else, like that is going to give your life purpose, but this cannot truly happen unless you have yourself to give. If you think your life has no meaning, then how can you bring meaning to a relationship? You can't rely on another person to make you feel something. Emotions have to come from within not from someone else. If you always rely on someone else to make you feel good, then your relationship will be volatile and short lived. You have to give and take and in order to do that, you have to have a balance in your own life. If you can't make yourself happy, then how can you make someone else happy?

You know the old saying, you need to love yourself before you can love someone else...well that means being proud of who you are, being good to yourself, developing yourself as a person and having self respect. A woman is not going to make you who you are and you won't figure out who you are by being with someone else. Your happiness needs to come from you, from your talents, from your nature, from your core values.

You are so young, you don't need to force the issue. Relationships don't make you whole and they don't make everything alright either. Your issues are your own and you will need to work through them before you can be happy with yourself. I play guitar and it brings me great joy to be creative and to have hobbies. I make myself happy when I am depressed and pick myself up because it is important not to drain the emotions of others in order to feel good because this will only be fleeting.

I pick up the guitar feeling dreadful and put it down feeling happy and comforted. This is what self healing is, you allow yourself to release happy hormones which come from tapping into your abilities and talents, your interest, things that make you the person you are. It makes me feel like I am valid and have a sense of self.

What is the point of doing these things if they bring you no joy. Are you not worth doing things for your own self? If no one else is around, is there no point existing, are you not worth your own love and attention? Of course you are!! You have to invest in yourself and be content in your own company.

I worry you are being your own worst enemy. You are hating on yourself and self loathing because others make you feel bad. Stuff others. Make your own happiness. If people aren't treating you right, then don't spend time with them. Don't blame yourself for the failings of others. There are good people in the world so don't paint everyone with the same brush or you will prevent yourself from making good relationships and will skew your view of the world around you.

You are worth your own time so let that person shine. You do have lots to offer and you will be happy and find someone when the time is right, but first, you should think about all the things that are good about you, all the things that are right in this world.

It is not all dark. It is your own thoughts that are tormenting you so let them go and keep life in perspective.

Stay away from drugs. Addiction will steal your life. It won't give you anything. You sound like you are bitter because things have not worked out as well as you had hoped. Well no one has a blue print for life and no one says how it is going to be and what time frame things are going to happen in. Be grateful for all the blessings in your life, do not focus on the things you want, but focus on the things you already have. This is what contentment is.

If you continue thinking this way then you will ensure that your life will be difficult because you choose to think negatively and you are allowing other people to control your happiness.

Live your life and let life happen. Don't absorb all the negativity in the world and make it your own. Focus on what is inside you and what you can offer. Instead of complaining about how crap the world is, let your light shine. Don't let the darkness take over the good person that you are. I was a gambling addict for 20 years because I hated on the world and couldn't process all the pain that I felt. I allowed other people to hurt me with their words and actions and then hurt myself by gambling to bury my feelings rather than just accepting that these are other people's failings, they are not mine. Now, if someone upsets me, I just step back from the relationship. I'm less disappointed in people now because I invest less in those that choose not to treat me right. Spend time with those that respect you and make you happy but don't let the negativity twist you up inside. Your life isn't getting any better because your attitude to life is still the same.

Be good to yourself.