Sucks

Yesterday my depression got so deep and dark again the damn hallucinations and voices got really bad again. When does this stop? Will it even stop? I have answers to make them go away.

[All_alone]

Hey fordguy. I'm here. Did something happen yesterday to make it get worse or Thanksgiving wk if your in the US. Talk to me..

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I am in us. Nothing that i can think of changed. Just sotting at my dining room table. Feeling just came frome nowhere.

[All_alone in reply to Hidden]

I'm sorry. That's hard when you dont know what changed to bring it on. Do you have family with you today?

Would it help to think/talk of something else..? Tell me about your name fordguy. I assume you like fords..? Or maybe what would you like to do today if it was a good day, a hobby, a favorite place... only if you care to share.

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Yes i have wife and kids. Name is robert. Just a mess. Maybe would be better by self.

[All_alone in reply to Hidden]

Hi Robert. I'm Cindy. Sending you strength to get thru this. Pm me if you need to talk.

[Hidden in reply to All_alone]

Thank you so much. Most people just dont get it, including spouses.

[All_alone in reply to Hidden]

Sadly, no they dont. My husband never understood at all.

[Hidden in reply to All_alone]

Its hard. Thanks for listening. I can be here for you too.

[All_alone in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. I'm trying to stay busy and not thinking about tomorrow.

[Hidden in reply to All_alone]

I am sorry. If you need anything reach out to me. Here email or text if you need.

[Hope1410]

Is it your own self talk that’s negative?

[Hidden in reply to Hope1410]

I dont understand question?

[Hope1410 in reply to Hidden]

Like the voices. Are you hearing things or is it you’re own self talk in your head?

[Hidden in reply to Hope1410]

Gotcha. No these are voices. Docs told me my depression is major and causes physcotice episodes.

[Hope1410 in reply to Hidden]

I’m sorry to hear that. Have you asked if there are meds to help with this?

[Hidden in reply to Hope1410]

On meds

[nicetry]

Is there anything you’ve done in the past that has helped?

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Not really

[nicetry in reply to Hidden]

Hmm. Personally I often choose distraction. Watch stupid tv, animal videos, anything to occupy my head. Doesn’t always work but ...

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I watch cars, harleys, tools to get lost in.i used to buold stuff for hot roads, bikes, an d oddball ones.

[Mrspjsmom]

Sorry to hear you're having a rough time. Sometimes our demons rear their ugly heads unexpectedly. Please know I am thinking of you and sending positive healing thoughts and hugs.

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Thank you.

[Julian67]

Ah, brother. I know that feels untenable. I work through shit unless my body gets immobile. Can you take good care of yourself, like you're caretaking a child? Bath, good food, hydration, rest? Sometimes, just directing myself to well actions strengthens my overall system.

[NorwegianWood in reply to Julian67]

Fordguy and Julian67, these are great suggestions. Looking after yourself is so good. Going for a walk, intentionally enjoying the scenery, having that coffee that you love. I found that daily exercise for two months made a significant improvement in my depression. There's a study that shows that the benefit is equal to or better than medication. I'm now doing the NHS choices Couch to 5k programme which is helping with mood and outlook. (It's part of this healtunlocked site) It uses podcasts to coach you through the early stages of running to 5k in 30 minutes. I do add that my depression has never been serious, but enough to make me anxious and miserable.

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Thank you

[Hidden in reply to NorwegianWood]

Although I prob say similar thgs

Reading this and other passages helps more than I might Tk

[Hidden in reply to Julian67]

Thank you

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Ur

Rt

Sometimes

Life

Really does suck

And it’s not

Helpful to have someone

Say

It doesn’t

Sometimes the woods can be a great place to say do or even scream or yell at thecworld

No

Punishment

No

Lightening bolts

Canngetvsome piison out and no one cares

Art can sbsorbba lot too

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I love to teach people. Help them. If they want to. It is a art form. Any questions ask. Enjoy my friend. Name is rob. Take it easy.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Somehow

I just knew ur a fab teacher

Not blowing my horn not my point

Yur destiny is to share yur gifts

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Yes sir. If they want to learn. I have taught quite a few.

[Hidden]

Ur worth it

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Partner

U

R

Yur

Own

Best

Harley

Worth it

Just Tk. All I could learn from u about bikes

Now

That is some way cool shit

Thk about sharing or blogging or teaching ur passions guys like me know other areas but

But

Hey who do u know that could teach me about bikes I’m tired of my

My broken records

Know what I mean???

Who could I find

That’s trustworthy that would be a great mentor

[Hidden]

Man to really learn about bikes

Woooooow that’s cool shit

To this guy

[Hidden]

I’d be so psyched if someone asked me to teach them art

But

Learning other stuff

Too

Thatsmmmmmh might fine hash

And legal

[Hidden]

Art is food to the soul but so is a person teaching u their stuff be it cokingbor bikes or or or

[Hidden]

Partner

Real

Sentiments k

No game k??

We all know what it’s like being bit by the rattlesnake so to speak

Who’d relate ??who can I trust?who isn’t going to judge me or chain me t the wall??scaryvtime dealing with things

We all can relate and none of us

Judge Less we be judged know what I mean

Helps us too indirectly And like the blind side movie

Got ur back man

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Like being handed cancer or seizures

U got handed some lemons we help each other add sugar to lifec and turn thgs intoba lemonade stand

Do what ya gotta do what ya gotta do u got friends here

[56artist_]

I am an artist hundred of sketches and paintings was so therapeutic for me and give them as gifts people are so astounded of my art those such as your spouse don't get it because they never walked in your shoes nor down your path my ex never got it he was blessed as a child not abused like me so they have no clue how it feels to struggle in life

[Hidden in reply to 56artist_]

I wish i had talent to do that. Any planes today? I need to go to 1 store for some stuff. Nothing holiday related.

[56artist_]

I worked in restaurant Thanksgiving day kind of a workaholic at 57 still am lol I never took anything but crayon art elementary school I always envy those how painted or drawed wanted to have their talent 10 yrs ago at 47 woke up and omg I have that talent deep inside what the neck I am in tax school income tax preparer and working at least 40 it 50 hours a week school alone is 40 week so no time for past to be in my life

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Look at you go. I used to be and still wish workaholic. I dont like myself or garbage that goes thru my head. It was easy to get lost in a vehicle. Find and fix problems. Loved and still love it.