5 months without her

[KekEstacado]

5 months now since I loose her, I'm feeling so down without her now, I can't believe that sometimes the life is so bitch, the cancer is a bitch and took all that used to make me happy, now I feel that something is lost in myself, a big part of me died with her, I miss her so bad, I hate life, destiny and everything that took her away from me

[kenster1]

hi really sorry to read this god bless you and your late partner cancer really is horrible.we have another fforum called bereavement care and share its a smallish community but very understanding and supportive.it maybe of added support to you.take care.

[KekEstacado in reply to kenster1]

Thank you, how could I find that group?

[kenster1 in reply to KekEstacado]

hi just scroll down to th bottom of the page and go to a-z communities.

[KekEstacado in reply to kenster1]

Thank you

[Wild_N]

So so sorry for the pain you are going through. I find myself feeling like you do a lot. May you find comfort and peace.

[KekEstacado in reply to Wild_N]

Thank you I wish the same for you too

[RoseyViolet]

Cancer takes so many of those we love and cherish. I too have several loved ones fighting and have lost the fight with cancer. It's never an easy thing to face, not for those fighting it nor for loved ones left behind. However, one thing I do know is this, our loved ones are counting on us to stay healthy, remain focused on living and living healthy lives both healthy emotionally, physically and spiritually.

In order to do that the most loving thing we can do is take the time necessary to grieve, but then begin healthy steps to slowly move forward. It doesn't mean we forget and move on, NO WAY. It means we take the best of what love they gave us, the lessons we learned and we pass them along to friends, co-workers, family and we live life to the fullest knowing that our lives were richer with our lost loved one in them. It was a gift, if only for a short period of time, it was a gift that we are forever thankful for. Start slowly by journaling your thoughts, concerns, anger, frustration... write it all out.... then each day as your eyes pop open first thing find one thing to be thankful for that day. As we turn our hearts towards gratitude it helps us remain focused on enjoying everyday simple things that we have perhaps taken for granted. Each new sunrise, a full breath of crisp cold air, a hot shower, comfortable sheets, the fact that we can walk, eat, smell... there's always something to find to be thankful for. It's a habit that will pay back in huge dividends. Praying for you KekEstacado, it really is a journey but one your loved one would want you to take.

[KekEstacado in reply to RoseyViolet]

Thanks for your words, it's hard but I'm trying everyday