Lately

[paigexnicole_]

My anxiety and depression have been really bad lately. It's like my regular depression mixed with seasonal depression. Still trying to get the courage to find a therapist... 😣

[kt91]

Same. I have been finding it very hard to just have one nice day. I have been telling myself that I need to get help but I am scared. I don't know what to expect and it makes me really nervous. Hopefylly we can both find the strength we need to get help.

[paigexnicole_ in reply to kt91]

I hope so too.

[GloomBy]

Me, too! It's so hard to get out of the double funk. What got me moving was a talk with my wife (basically a come-to-jesus-pep-talk) and I started looking at things a little differently. I use a journal system I've developed on Evernote and keep one specific journal like a Bullet Journal. This one just has basic events: Who we had dinner with, what chores I managed to get done, etc. Nothing more than a sentence per item. For a long time I was just recording what I did (or didn't do) each day. When I got my WAKE UP CALL I started to write ahead, making lists of things I wanted to accomplish, no matter how small. "Do the frickin' dishes" is an example.

Making myself write down something I wanted to do for the day and then being able to check that off the list, no matter how small or mundane the activity, helps me keep moving forward.

I won't work for everyone, but that's what I have to do to deal with the winter blues on top of my regular depression. That sense of accomplishment leads to fulfillment which gets me a little higher up on the cranky-ass-hole-meter towards "not-so-cranky-today".

[paigexnicole_ in reply to GloomBy]

Thank you for sharing 😊

[Lindsey14]

I feel ya, you aren't alone