Help help please

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

I’ve been out of work with anxiety disorder and ocd/ depression for over a year now and I’m so scared about going into work for the first time again tomorrow I’m dizzy my head feels full disorientated I feel sick overwhelmed by horrible smells I feel weak I’m just so so scared what’s wrong with me why am I so broken or am I actually unwell I keep trying to rationalise but it just doesn’t seem to work.

[Mrspjsmom]

You're facing a new job and often anxiety is the worst when you are facing a new situation. Waiting is the worst. Try to hang in there. This job could turn out to be wonderful. Will be thinking of you and sending positive thoughts. Please keep us posted.

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to Mrspjsmom]

Thank you very much for your reply I appreciate your positivity it helped calm me quite a bit I manage to get in there and say for 3 hours of a four hour shift but I eventually made up an excuse and ran out as my head started to feel full and I stated to feel really dizzy and my vision began to blur I just don’t know why I feel this way it’s like the smallest things cause a tremendous stress on my body

[Mrspjsmom in reply to Meyer_Gdmnx]

One step at a time. You did a great job staying for three hours! I know you can do this and stay for your full shift next time. Depression and anxiety make us feel weak but we are strong. We ate survivors. HUGS and BLESSINGS.

[Lynl]

First, congratulations on the new job, I’m sure it’s all anxieties, just like the first day of school or a college test, meeting new people. But after you get there it’s a breeze. Before you go , take a few deep breaths through your nose and out your mouth , say a little prayer and have a great day.

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to Lynl]

Thank you for the congratulations it means a lot however I’ve felt that kind of anxiety before and unfortunately this isn’t as easy to take my whole body just starts feeling terrible right and ache and hot and almost like I’m angry but I’m not. My vision starts to blur my head feels dizzy and full my stomach goes up and down I have no idea what to do any more it’s like I’m broken

[Lynl in reply to Meyer_Gdmnx]

That is that fight or flight feeling panic attack that we all hate. But the fact is we have to fight it. Just think,,, those people at your job don’t know what your going through, so you could come in strong and ready to go and make a real difference, but you gave to pray and fight it. Good luck my friend and keep in touch

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to Lynl]

Thank you again for your supportive reply it really means a lot to me if you ever need to talk I’m always here to return the favour. I know about fight or flight and you’re right about fighting through it however unless im in my house later I my bed I don’t feel comfortable or safe and I just don’t know how to solve that it what it is?

[Lynl in reply to Meyer_Gdmnx]

Thank you, . At home in bed is where we are supposed to relax but people like us have minds that wake up and make us think and overthink but I keep a tv on so when I wake up in anxiety I watch old sitcoms for a while till I fall back to sleep , actually it’s 3 am and I woke up with that fast heartbeat till I took a breath and got on my phone. Try diverting your attention. . Keep in touch😊

[sunandbutterfly]

Congratulations on making it through three hours of work. That is a big victory. Know that when it comes to anxiety and these symptoms that you are not alone. In your feelings of brokenness, you are not alone. Have you been in touch with a physician or counselor? For me, seeking counseling was helpful. For my grandmother, both coping skills and medications were needed to help her manage anxiety.

Whatever the case, I hope you have the support that you need.

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to sunandbutterfly]

Thank you for your reply sunandbutterfly it was really touching to read such positivity and up not feel alone. I have been to council long on two separate occasions and they both worked well in overcoming panic disorder however my big problem is that I just can’t handle how I feel and I seem to feel terrible when doing anything that’s not laying in my bed or just being in my house and I just don’t know what it is or how to combat it. I’m glad councillors helped you and your grandmother I hope you and her continue to win this battle as I’m sure you will ❤️

[Coloradowalker]

Hi Meyer... I’m curious how your days have been and if you have been able to return to work. 3 hours there after being off for so long is commendable and shows your strength. Our homes and beds are what is most comfortable but so isolating. I’ll bet as you continue to make small (or large) gains, you will gain confidence and eventually avoid your bed because you’ll see what you have been missing. Keep challenging yourself and reward every little step. You’ve got this❤️