PANIC ATTACK? NO, ATTACK PANIC II TRIGGER

[sweetiepye]

Come along with me. We're going out to have a panic attack. Yep, we're going to face it and accept it. So, I'm a little nervous as I walk through the market hoping I can get my shopping done before I have a pa. I don't enjoy this anymore , I put it off until the cupboards are bare. I hurry a little but I don't want anyone to notice me, I slow down. I am feeling shaky and I grasp the cart, my legs are turning to jelly. As the lights get too bright and seem to merge into a swirl of movement and color. I feel like I can't breath, but I remind myself that I am breathing I start to breath with purpose and slowly. I am not passing out. The adrenalin is pumping into me. I am not depressed physically, I am hyper , too hyped up to pass out. I focus on guiding my cart and decide to go to the ladies rm. I can smile at people but I want to be alone and pull myself together. I am very slowly calming down, breathing is better. I go into the ladies , grab a paper towel, soak it with cold water, go into a stall where I sit and use the cold water on my neck and wrists. I know the worst has passed . I continue to control my breathing and on jelly legs I go to my car, I have had enough. I have faced it as long as I could. Tomorrow I will try again. I feel successful, nothing bad has happened to me except some very nasty feelings. Pam 1 vs . pa 1. I think it's a draw.

I anyone feels this is not helpful, I will delete it.

[Tbine]

Hello ,. I have to give you credit for making it through that ! Remember, EVERY ONE of those episodes that you make it through makes you a little stronger. It pays to always keep that in mind when you do venture out. As bad as that was,.you have to also remember that unfortunately that is the ONLY WAY to beat them,. You will have to sweat and shake, etc. But the one thing that "turns off" the intensity of them, especially the shortness of breath is practicing deep breathing. I swear by it! Not to mention it is proven by science. Well, keep fighting and don't ever give up.

[sweetiepye in reply to Tbine]

I'm sorry I didn't make it clear... I recovered years ago and this is a remembered attack. I wrote about it because I wanted people to understand that I went through the fear. When I write that I think people get an idea that you just accept the idea and you are well. I wanted to share the reality and let others know you can overcome ,but it is work and repetition. You have a good grasp of it so I think you must have been through the war. Pam

[Tbine in reply to sweetiepye]

Lol ,, i feel stupid now. No problem, and yes i have been through what seemed to be never-ending war with all that. That is why when i post something i try my best to explain things in detail. When i was at war with it all, i could never find a "thorough" explanation of how to manage or overcome any of my issues. It was always a very vague article .

[sweetiepye in reply to Tbine]

It's hard to not know something. I do thought jumps and assume everyone else does too.I under explain. I feel stupid too, but I doubt either of us are.

[Dolphin14 in reply to sweetiepye]

It's so true Pam. It's something you work through. You can't just shut it off.

[kenster1]

you know the old saying a draw is better than a defeat at least you achieved your aim so I would say that's a win.

[UnderstandingMyPain]

Pam I love your post! It is extremely helpful. Thanks for taking out the time to share it with everyone

[sweetiepye in reply to UnderstandingMyPain]

My pleasure.

[Hidden]

Thats me but I get into the car and my heart is racing my mind is all over the place and because my anxiety is so bad it brings on a littke paranoia so I ruminate from the time i get out of the market drive home not hearing what my neighbor who is driving is saying and get things up in my place to the cabinets and I cant stop thinking who saw me I ferl weird I take my medicine and feeling irritated I go right back to bed.

[Hidden]

I forgot to end my post thank you Pam your post reminded me of the skilks I could use. Hopefully you have some advice

[sweetiepye in reply to Hidden]

When I first started having panic attacks it would be in a store or riding in a car. I was so concerned that someone would notice my crazy behavior not realizing my crazy behavior was in my head. No one ever noticed anything. My first action was to keep on doing whatever I was doing when the panic hit. I might hesitate but I would keep going and I would get through it. It was horrible, I was scared , but I knew I could get through it and nothing happened to me. The more I did this the easier it became. I never left home without my bag of tricks which contained smelling salts, aspirin, cold water, my house charm, when I was driving I would turn on the air conditioning even in winter, the cold calmed me down. Controlling my breathing was a big help especially when I was around people . When I got home I would be exhausted and would escape to my bed if I could. I think all of my tricks really were a distraction focusing on them lessened my focusing on the panic. Give yourself daily assignments such as doing whatever you fear. Just once a day to begin with and then relax till your next assignment.

[Hidden]

Thank you I will let you know how it goes

[Hidden]

Hi there beautiful you! I look at it as a win for you because you went...I'm proud of you. I understand the nasty panic as I battle anxiety..it's good to know it won't kill us and when we keep fighting the good fight...in the end we do win.

Keep you the great work and hold on tight to your power girl!

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