I have been functioning for a while now, but some feature of my severe depression has become prominent again. It's a real problem for me. Sometimes I am literally "high on life" in the morning and then everything turns dark in the afternoon. I don't have suicidal thoughts, but I have thoughts like "well, my life is not worth anything. Might as well not be." I try to do things to keep my mind occupied, but I don't seem to have interest in anything nor do I have the energy to do things.
My coping strategy up to now was doing a lot of intense exercise and doing mindfulness meditation. The intense training works until I lose motivation or become ill and get out of my routine.
As I sit here I am also not feeling well because I have been self-medicating with cannabis for a few days. It is obviously a stupid thing to do but yea... gonna try my best to stop that now.
Does anyone have some advice for me?