Pain and anxiety

[Kevin160]

I talked before about how many events i have this upcoming week, i forced myself to participate in things because during it i feel terrible and like im going to die but after it i feel so free and confident and my mental state is always great when i overcome a fear, i went to get a complete physical with many doctors a few weeks ago and it was scary but i felt so brave and confident after all the x rays, blood tests etc..

I forced myself to participate in competitions , plays and charity bake sales and to my luck they are all in one week , guess god has a plan for me, but all the feelings of fear and extreme pressure are piling up , today i had severe anxiety, my left arm is really hurting and im so short of breath i can barely speak without gasping for air and feeling dizzy , i can barely walk alot or move without feeling my chest hurting , i went down that road many times but its still scary

I just hate my life somtimes , a year ago i would participate in plays, competitions , social events , parties , and feel stressed but not to a point where im worried about my physical and mental health , but now im so sensitive to fear and everything else that im in a state of fear weeks before leading up to an event, i would get it if i was nervous a day before or the same day, but im nervous about things happening in weeks

[Sprinkle1]

You need help, and you need to stop beating yourself up. Find a caring therapist and talk these problems out. You may need to take an anti anxiety med for a short time to help. When my anxiety gets so bad my Dr. gives me a script for Lorazepam they really work. I send your courage, believe in self, let the world pass by, they don't care about us, so we have to care about ourselves, love your self, it is a lovely feeling. I send you strength, love and hugs. Sprinkle 1....

[Kevin160 in reply to Sprinkle1]

My family are not as supportive when i say i need therapy, they dont say no but they are not supporting me which is hard because its extremely difficult for me to go, because it will just make it more real that i have a mental problem and thats terrifying.

I have alot of people to talk to and people to help , and i came a long way in these few months where whenever i say i decided to start therapy i quickly say no i will be fine, for example the whole month of october , only one week was very stressful the rest i barely knew what anxiety was , so im fidong ways to cope but im not really sure what the future has in store