8 Days ago I joined this group, hoping to find someone out there who I could connect with. I hoped for someone, anyone who I could call a friend. I hoped that I could express myself freely, the way I had in my journals, without fear of judgement or ridicule for the way I am. To be honest you can be vulnerable in public without someone judging you and if you don't want real responses that may not be what you want to hear, then you're really not putting yourself out there to learn any new thing. What I can say is how incredibly grateful I am to the source that leads me to step in this direction. It has been one of the most liberating experiences in my life, and I have met some of the most awesome people ever, that have made me happy and eager to continue this journey, in just 8 Days. Thank you so much Thank you Thank you Thank you
With Love Always...AU
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I know how it feels to think about opening up to people and being afraid of what they will think of you. I have a couple of friends but never actually like a deep connection because they don't understand me. I have severe OCD but I'm functioning so they don't know the pain I carry around.
Thank you for responding. I don't have OCD but I have a sister that lives with one and she's taken on a lot of that because she wants to show him she cares enough to make things right. I have to say though, from what I see and feel, its a big big responsibility keeping up with your OWN expectations. More even than those around you. Perfection is an illusion. Even God/Universe/Source creates imperfections in life to show us that there is no such thing all the time. I get crazy(er) when I'm hosting an event. A party or whatever. The decorations have to be just so, and they are never right. The food has to be just so, then I don't think it's good enough. I run around cleaning as people have fun and never eat or relax until it's over and all the while I'm beating myself up. My man has no regard for being clean so here it is a lesson in futility and fighting it almost broke me. So, serenity prayer, until I can get the hell out of dodge lol I can understand your not sharing with your friends. I don't have any friends in the real world because I haven't met anyone in over 15 years that I can trust with my vulnerabilities, and if someone dares break at the trust at this point I might punch them in the mouth. Jailtime be damned! lol You're safe here Sin. Hope to hear from you again soon.
Hi. How are you today? I was enjoying getting to know you and be friends with you so hope to hear from you again. I did write back to you recently. My lovely guy is back home now but I always find time for real friends. Have a nice day.
I figured you were getting busy! I loved getting to know you better too, and I will make sure to take time to write you a note. In the meantime, I hope you are having a wonderful welcome home with your guy
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