Empty

I’m just done. I feel nothing but everything at the same time. I just don’t even want to feel a single thing anymore and I hope one day I can get there but right now I’m on the verge of tears. I’m falling really deep back into my pit of sadness and just wanna go away. Sometimes I don’t know why I believe some people were possibly destined to not be on this earth very long because it’s just not for them. I feel that way about my self sometimes. I just wanna stop feeling everything. I know emotions can be good but whenever they ever get good something happens to just break them down to the floor. Nothing is consistent in my brain. I am currently home from school for the weekend and just snapped at my mom because I always think her questions are an attempt to be mean.

[huskymom24]

I completely feel you. I have so many thoughts in my head on how I want to feel but I'm just stuck in this emotionless state. I feel sad but not sad. I don't understand it myself but I know that I'm feeling some sort of emotion when I feel emotionless at the same time.

[kevinloveslen]

Dear Hidden ,

I am sorry that you are having such a difficult time right now. I has been down that shaft that leads to the valley of the shadow of death and I never want to go back! For several years I have suffered from severe back pain, so bad that I am bed / wheelchair bound most of the time. It got so bad in 2015 that I wanted to end it all.

That was when my outlook changed. My wife convinced me to commit my life to Christ. I had accepted Him years before, but had not trusted Him with this issue. I began reading and meditating on His Word, becoming active in a local church, fasting, and praying. I won't say that I don't have days that are tough (yesterday was a very physically painful day), but my outlook has completely changed so that I don't get depressed and anxious when this occurs.

Please know that I am praying for you,

Blessings,

Kevin