HELP PLEASE!!

[WorshipGirl2000]

**Trigger Warning**

Today was the first time I have gone to the spot where I was raped at age 12. It has been 7 years since it happened so I thought I would be strong enough to overcome it. I got to the park and my stomach started turning.. I had to pause before I could even walk up the stairs. As I got to the top of the hill in the park I walked up to the front of the bathrooms where it happened. Then I fell to my knees and sobbed. I couldn't even go in. I sat in the park for 20 minutes crying. I even had to call my sister to come pick me up because I didn't have the strength to walk home. I feel so weak and useless. I can't overcome this!!

I can't even stop having panic attacks since I went this afternoon.

[Hidden]

You can overcome it. You survived and went back. You are making steps for healing. Good for you. You should be proud.

[Hidden]

I've been there, molested and sexually assaulted in a hospital. You can get past this. Counseling, therapy, baby steps. Be stronger despite your circumstances.

[MRawPR]

You’re stronger than you think. It is very brave to do what you did. It’s part of your healing and those memories will slowly fade away. Feel proud of yourself and keep your chin up! Take care. M

[SeekingHelp17]

You are brave. Give yourself credit and more time.

[Hidden]

WorshipGirl2000, you are incredibly brave. To even think of going back to the park requires so much strength and courage. I think you are being so hard on yourself. Even thinking of going back is really brave. Please be kinder to yourself.

[fauxartist]

take if from someone who knows, doing this on your own without professional guidance can be pretty risky....I hope your talking to a therapist now to help you.

[Sprinkle1]

My hat comes of to you in salute, I too am a rape victim, and I know the horrors of what you must experience. I do not know where you live, but there are Rape Counseling services in most towns, I know I took the training (40 hours) and became a counselor myself, I would ask you search out one of these groups and get the help you need to help you heal. I think you must be a Very strong young lady to do what you did, give yourself credit, then get the help you need to help you heal further. Check with your local hospital(s), YWCA, go on line and search, there is help, and you deserve to heal. I send you peace and love, and go for it lady, you can do it. Sprinkle 1.......