I need to Unfocus

[AlLeYkAt86-]

Why when these memories flood back in do they have to be so crystal clear? What good is it to me when it's gone. My subconscious is an inconsiderate prick and finding new ways to twist the knife, I'm not even sure he's on my side in all this.

[Starrlight]

Sometimes the past burdens or future worries pop up for us when we least need to focus on them, right? So frustrating. I have an exercise I do to get my thoughts away for a while... picture a container in the sky and a ladder... climb the ladder and place the thoughts inside, find a lid and place it on. If a thought slips out go back and slip it in, then go back down the ladder.

Best to you AlLeYkAt86

[GlassPoodle in reply to Starrlight]

I like this. Can my container have lava in it? In all seriousness though, it is so tough having unwarranted memories take over. Stop making me sad. Stop making me mad. I’m trying to be in a good place. I’ll have to try your trick next time!

[Starrlight in reply to GlassPoodle]

Haha! Yes, lava disintegrating the thoughts... I know, our thoughts can become our reality making us in a bad place.Yes I hope the trick works for ya!

[GlassPoodle]

My brain is most definitely not on my side. I want healing and peace. My brain is like, here is this memory: now go be sad!! I literally have to get up and do something else. If I’m sitting on the couch I will get up and find something to do. Even if it’s just getting up to put my glass in the dishwasher.

[AlLeYkAt86-]

I honestly just want to ask whatever part of me does this, "What do you want from me?"

[Starrlight in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

Yeah I really hear ya! Me too.

[AlLeYkAt86- in reply to Starrlight]

(sigh) more like (screaming in my head)

[Starrlight in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

I’m so so sorry you are dealing with this.

[argh52]

All of my memories are bad. I have to struggle to remember the good things and those memories are vague. And then whenever I do I free associate to the related bad things, which are crystal clear.

Why do are brains do this to us?

[1947treble]

It must be awful to be going through what you are. When I have bad memories (PTSD symptoms) it helps me to listen to podcasts, watch TV, read. Any major distraction

[AlLeYkAt86-]

Less than an hour of work left. Then bed.