What Pain Says

[Starrlight]

Feeling stupid and unworthy to live and my guess is that’s depression talking...they are just feelings but they are sucking me down...it’s hard to trust others, it’s hard to trust myself right now. Pain. I feel so trapped by it.

[NeuronerdDoaty]

Well hello depression. Depression you’re such a nasty liar. You’re like black mold. Go away. We have things to do. Quit wasting our time with lies. Life awaits💐💛

[sweetiepye]

I have noticed that you are a kind and supportive member on site. Not the action of an unworthy person or a stupid one. So you are probably right about it being the depression talking, but…. we don't have to listen to that liar do we? Pam

[AlLeYkAt86-]

You can distrust others if you want. You've responded to me when no one else did. I have no answers, no pat on the back poster sayings, no idea who you or even I am. Just know I and others are here. I've found that's enough. Nothing upbeat. Just here.

[Starrlight in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

Thanks

[Hidden]

Hold on tight. Things are worse at night. Don't forget the cocoa!

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Ok

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Do you think a weighted blanket would help. Have heard people recommend them?

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

I dont think so but thanks I appreciate the idea. Hmm I am curious though what it would be like.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Guess you need someone to help with the restless sensations. Your contact point may know someone from the church who can help you. Expect you can catch up with sleep tomorrow sometime.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

People say the blanket is like being tucked up in bed and makes them feel secure . Chat tomorrow.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Weighted blanket reviews UK recommends buzzio which is made of sand grains evening standard and the magic blanket has a video..there are chenille and waffles and honey comb ones but they are recommended for anxiety and sleep. People recommend warm loose bed so is too to improve sleep. Hope you feel better today. Am off to do some paintingi in the shed. . Cat playing up for food sleeps on the kitchen table and now scratching papers and gnawing electrical leads Tasty.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Bedsocks for sleep missed out a word..

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Birmanblue. I woke up feeling depressed. I don’t know what to do. I’m just trying to do the necessary things and pray that this ends soon.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

This dip in mood might be to do with a cut in meds. As you say this is a journey. May be getting out of bed slowly sitting before standing might help. I do side to side head exercises and head up and down too to help with the circulation in the head. Sometimes you can feel wobbly with a change in blood pressure as you get up. Drinking water might help as you can feel a bit off if you haven't drunk enough. I guess you have slept in so you need this as it is the best therapy after restless worried phases. Splashing cold water on your face might help to activate you. If you need sugar in your diet then may be some toast and butter and jam or marmalade will help with some coffee? Hope you feel better soon as mood dip is awful.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for the ideas. I haven't eaten much this week. I have no appetite.i think too the med change is reason for feeling bad yes. It will pass I keep saying to myself but I’m still under heaviness. I can’t think straight my head is fuzzy. I’m going to force myself to take a few bites of something.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Why not drink some sugary squash you need glucose to help you quickly. Are you living with some family other than mum? Boring but have been reading about Omega 3 which helps Alzeimers. There is a missing link in digestion which links to Alzeimers sufferers . Increasing Omega 3 in food such as fish Salmon herring sardines. It is readily available in foods

walnuts tofu shellfish canola oil and Flora

margerine. Docosahhexaenoic acid DHA found in fish oil and seafood is the missing essential for Alzeimers.

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[56artist_ in reply to Starrlight]

My autistic grand used weighted blanket it helped it calmed him

[56artist_ in reply to 56artist_]

Grandson

[Hidden in reply to 56artist_]

What sort was it sounds good?

[56artist_ in reply to Hidden]

I am not sure what sort it may be it is different in some way because autistic melt downs it was fairly heavy but Wal-Mart sells weighted blankets I see my grandson was 3 and 4 when he needed his and it came from a professional doctors he was bad and now in a placement facility and 7 yrs old I sure miss and love him

[Hidden in reply to 56artist_]

So sorry about this.There is a lot of information out there about autism but it doesn't feature in most programmes for education. As learning deficit disorder and Asperger's have been included in the profile it is a shame that old research including gluten in foods is not even considered when information has been present since 1926. Other food substances are Omega 3 in for liver oil.

[Amz1987 in reply to Starrlight]

My son doesn’t like the weighted blanket but he does prefer a weighted stuffed toy to sit on his body it helps his to calm his mind.

[JEG325]

Then you can trust me, S. I'm having a bad 2 day period myself right now. But, I

I'll tell you this: You are one of the most worthy people I know of. If anyone deserves to go on living, you do! The world needs a Star in it, this I promise. Besides, who's gonna put up with me when I feel bad? (lol)

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

Thanks my friend and I hope you feel better soon.

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to JEG325]

I’ll put up with you when you feel bad. It’s okay to feel bad. 🙃

[JEG325 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Are you sure? Read what I wrote to Black Cat Girl....How can I help others when they need it if I let the same stuff get me down from time to time? I just don't know sometimes....

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to JEG325]

None of us know much most of the time. I think we just think we do. It depends on what story we’re telling ourselves.

[Hidden in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

This! ☝️

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

Don't feel bad...the fact that you even bother trying to help others IS a wonderful gesture. I think for a lot of people here, they don't know what to say or they feel what they have said isn't helpful. I've felt that way a lot here. You can only do what you can. And listen...if you need to heal, remember you matter too. This site is filled with a mixture of people suffering in different ways. We can't always lift everyone up. We can only do our best. So please don't beat yourself up over that.

[Hidden]

Yes, I feel you there. These feelings and thoughts are just the depression clouding your judgement and manipulating your thoughts. It can be hard to silence this dark cloud, but deep down, you know it's not true. It's like a toxic friend always putting you down and kicking you at every chance it has while you're out for the count.

To make matters worse, sometimes you have no energy to fight it, so the feelings can be very intense, especially when it feels like no one is there to talk. I'm glad you're not shy when it comes to writing out everything you feel. What you're feeling now is something that I'm grappling with right now too. I'm always here to talk if you need it, but just know this isn't your fault. You're not less of a person because of this either. ♥️

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

I've been in a very positive upbeat mood for about 3 weeks or so. But, something caused me to feel mildly sick yesterday and today. The end result of that is a depressed, melancholy feeling. My nerves are on edge and my patience is low. My emotions run very high during these spells so I usually isolate myself. Even from my sweetie. And she's not feeling well today either! I try to be strong for everyone else but, once in a while I have a bad spell too. It makes me feel disappointed in myself that I can't hold up better. I don't have the energy to fight myself right now....

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

YES. Oh man I hate saying the same thing, but I have felt how you've been feeling this week for the same reason. Being physically sick and mentally drained. But you know how it goes....it's a wave that ebbs and flows. You take the good with the bad. Everything you've described is exactly how it feels...just done in so many respects. I'm so sorry you're dealing with this now. You're always welcome to talk to me anytime.

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for that. I know that you and Sue talk a lot too. That's why I responded to you. I will talk to you from time to time and I encourage you to talk to me too. I'm sure we can help each other. Hope you feel better ASAP!

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

You're very welcome!! Aw, yes, I really appreciate Sue and I've seen all your wonderful comments and figured you were a lovely individual too! Yes, anytime!

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to JEG325]

Don’t fight with yourself. You’re okay just the way you are. Even if I gave you a talking to in a PM. If you want to fight with someone, I’m here😎 Love and smooches, Lynne ❤️

[JEG325 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Isn't that what got me in trouble to start with? I didn't answer the pm because I was afraid I would make it worse. I admit a 'vent out' session would do me some good. The person I used to vent to most and I had a falling out about 3 weeks ago. I probably miss that a lot, L.

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

I feel you there. But it's all about give and take. I'm sure when you're up for it, you give plenty. It's hard though...knowing how much to say...how little to say...when to stop. It's not easy, but I think the right person will be gentle with you regardless.

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

I’m sorry. Yeah I isolate too (((((((((((((Hug)))))))))))) no disappointment in yourself, you are navigating through it bravely I feel like. You are amazing.

[JEG325 in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks. I needed that hug from you, S. I put very great stock in your support. I always have and I always will. Much love and hugs to you, my awesome friend!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

Here’s another star powered Hug especially for you ((((((( ⭐️ ))))))

[JEG325 in reply to Starrlight]

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, S! ((((((((STARRLIGHT))))))))) !!!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

Awwww shucks 😊

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

(((((((((((((Hug)))))))))) thank you ... exactly

[LiveandLetLive42]

Awww Star what’s going on, you’re having a tough time lately. I’m really worried. You deserve happiness and positive energy. You’re such a sweetheart. You light up this community and we all love you so much. Talk to me anytime 💜 M

[Starrlight in reply to LiveandLetLive42]

Wow thank you soooo. I know. It’s true. Lately really sucks for me but you noticing that it sucks is actually uplifting me like ok it’s ok that this is happening and I’m really trying so I need to give myself some credit I’m realizing. ❤️

[newbie56]

Dearest Starr,

Remember the bridge over troubled waters. We can cross it. Even in pain.

youtube.com/watch?v=ESHt5z8...(Not working as expected?) <3

[Starrlight in reply to newbie56]

Beautiful

[carlybette]

I understand, Starrlight. Peace to you.

[Starrlight in reply to carlybette]

❤️

[Starrlight in reply to carlybette]

How are you doing?