Arggggggggghhhhhhhhh!

[AnIslandOfPeace]

I just want to break something or pluck my eyes out of em sockets so these thoughts can get outta my head. Imagine violent thoughts as liquid, a very heavy liquid. All I feel at the moment is this liquid in my head, pressing it's weight on my eyes as torture to carry them out. No no no. Noooooooo. It's really painful. I can't even type well because there's tears all over my screen and my vision is blurred. I'm tired, I'm really tired. And y'all don't have to try to make me feel better, I just want to scream as cry but since I can't do that, I came her to pour this out. My head hurts, my heart burns, this is not the life I want and now all think of is throwing it away. #wipesTears

[Sillysausage234]

😬....cup of tea maybe

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Sillysausage234]

I guess. Thanks.

[Sillysausage234 in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

Your welcome

[Starrlight]

I’m so sorry you are suffering so much. I know when it is really bad I believe it won’t end this time and then it does and so I may be crazy but we’ll i hope you feel better soon. Is there something you need to talk about?

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Starrlight]

I can't even get words out the right way.

[Starrlight in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

You are doing well I think.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks.

[Hidden]

Just cry it out! Do you have any prn anxiolytics you could take?

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Hidden]

I wish I could, I wish I could.

[Starrlight]

Hope u r feeling better.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Starrlight]

Yeah. At least I'm sane.

[Darklight_465 in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

the amount of time I try to convince myself of this 😅

[Capricorngoat92]

That was me yesterday and most days are like that. I often find myself taking Benadryl just to escape my reality for a little while. I know that's not healthy but it does make it a lot easier. Not suggesting you take it but just letting you know you certainly are not alone in this!

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Capricorngoat92]

Thanks a lot.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Capricorngoat92]

But this Benadryl though, what is it for?

[Agora1 in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

IslandOfPeace, Benadryl is an antihistamine that will make you

drowsy and feel relaxed. Has been used by some doctors for anxiety. xx

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Agora1]

Uhhh. Sorry, can it be sold without prescription.

[Agora1 in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

I'm sure there are OTC products for Benadryl however, always run it by

your doctor first. It may not be the right med for you. xx

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Agora1]

Aye aye captain. Lol. Thanks.

[Agora1 in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

xx Want to keep you safe

[dangerousmind4523]

Hi, I just want to share that I have BPD and a violent temper that comes with it. I, would never hurt anyone out of anger because it is wrong; however, during a ‘blackout,’ I don’t remember what I have done so I tend to stay away from people to protect them from me and vice versa. I know it’s hard dealing with the intrusive thoughts because I also suffer from: PTSD, a traumatic brain injury and bipolar 1 mixed. I am working on bettering myself but it is not going to be easy because life is not easy nor should it be filled with anger or fear. 🇺🇸

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to dangerousmind4523]

Hmm. Thanks. I hope you get better.

[dangerousmind4523 in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

thank you

[dangerousmind4523]

Hi, I have BPD and when I ‘split’ the rage takes over and I enjoy breaking things or hearing sounds of destruction. No, it is not conducive to my overall physical health; however, in a strange way- it soothes me. People who don’t know about anxiety and/or PTSD have a hard time understanding but there is no excuse for: being ignorant and/or stupid-if you don’t know and really care, try asking a question.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to dangerousmind4523]

True. Thanks.

[WorshipGirl2000]

I'm so sorry you feel like that. I have been struggling with a similar thing for a couple few days. Maybe find a place where you can get comfortable and/ or be surrounded by people that love and care about you and just try to take a break from the world. My escape is music, both making and listening to it, but some other ideas would be your favorite TV show or maybe a good book to help wind you down. When picking something to do, try to find something that doesn't intensify your emotions or work you up (like listening to metal can do to some people). I hope things start to turn around soon. You will be in my thoughts!

[dangerousmind4523 in reply to WorshipGirl2000]

Thank you, I do need reminding sometimes

[WorshipGirl2000 in reply to dangerousmind4523]

If you ever need a reminder again, feel free to reach out. I will remind you that you are loved if you ever need it again!

[dangerousmind4523 in reply to WorshipGirl2000]

Thank you

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to WorshipGirl2000]

This is so nice.