Anyone been out of work or not having had structure in their daily lives for a while? It's reeking havoc on my mentality and am all over the place throughout the day emotionally and mentally. Like having things in order, and keep telling myself to just take it one step at a time and be patient, but it's tough. Especially when you're alone with your thoughts for most of the time. I make to-do lists mostly every day but nowadays can't find the motivation or willpower to carry them out. Simple things like getting up at a specific time everyday, adhering to my med regimen, and making it to the store, running errands, etc. Don't have friends around my area really, and I've lost touch with the few friends I did have once upon a time. I've got my family, which is very passive-aggressive with me, and the crisis help line people (haha).
I just want (hope) I can have a better day tomorrow. And then again the day after.