Sometimes be separate just be a lone

[Starrlight]

I am looking deep inside all alone and there’s a lot of angry resistance pulling me from progress and resentment making me into what feels disgusting. I am trying to think through rather than immediately react. Working from here suuuuucks because a whole other layer got lifted so every time I think I’m straight I have to fight through more and God it feels terrible. In the sun crying. Hoping to unveil a better person soon because I’ve broken my heart in this dark.

[Lostmyself65]

Oh Starrlight I am so sorry things feel so bad right now and I definitely relate. I just had a conversation with my therapist about how frustrated I am with living like this. It makes me angry having to work so hard for even the little things. I hope you feel better after your cry....just release your frustration and pick yourself up. Sending you peace and comfort.

[Starrlight in reply to Lostmyself65]

((((((((((((((Hug))))))))))))))) sounds like we are going through similar. I keep trying to do to take to recall to listen .... I’m so done. I’m just gonna let myself be hopefully without being mean to myself or others.

Did your therapist have any good tips?

[Lostmyself65 in reply to Starrlight]

Just the normal advise....take deep breaths,meditate and exercise. I have to admit I was full of attitude. I told him that was part of my frustration because I do all of that and still I spent Saturday crying the entire day. Having to work so hard and having little to no relief is beyond frustrating. Sending hugs to you my friend! May we both have a better tomorrow.

[Starrlight in reply to Lostmyself65]

Exactly. You are doing it all right, just remember it’s not your fault... ((((((Double hug)))))))))) vent to me any time ok? I vented with a friend today and it helped.

[Lostmyself65 in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you! That means a lot to me. You do the same. I am always here if you need anything!