It has been a while since I wrote on here but I want to share with you all something that happened yesterday.
I went to the endodonthist yesterday because last week the general dentist saw something on the Xray that he wanted me to go get it checked by the specialist. I get to the clinic and the dentists touches around the tooth and tests it and he says that only a dead tooth (meaning the nerve inside it died) would cause what he sees on the Xray. So I asked him then what treatment do I need, he said that he would do the root canal anyway and if that does not work, they will have to extract the tooth and replace it with a crown or implant.
Now I am already missing my two front teeth because I am going through the implant process; and I thought "great, I am gonna be 37 years old, alone with no kids and with no teeth in my mouth at the rate thongs are going. Of course immediately thinking that, my body reqcted by having a full blown anxiety attack. I started spasming, my arms and legs shaking and tears flowing down my cheeks. The doctor and his assistant looking at me like WTF? I told them I am having an anxiety attack and it happens sometimes. They remained cool and proceeded to encourage me, telling me to take my time, they gave tissues qnd waited. As it is going on, I thought of the things and techniques learned through recovery international, and I told myself that my body is just having a reaction, so I am going to let it take its course. I also surprisingly thought about a post I saw on here a few months back, a girl went to a job interview and her anxiety was so bad that we yhrew up everywhere and the assistant at the job helped and encouraged her.
So my body processed and calmed down and I told the doctor get on with the root canal treatment. When I came out of the clinic, I thought how stupid this anxiety thing must be, but also I thought that I must really work on not having spiraling thoughts about how things will just go to the worst possible scenario. OMG!!! childless, alone and with no teeth in my mouth at 37 years old? Who in their right mind have thesr kinds of thoughts? SMH...