Always anxious and depressed

[Bella1980]

My first post here. I have suffered from anxiety all of my life, generalized anxiety and social anxiety. I’m 39 and it’s just getting worse as I am getting older. I have frequent anxiety attacks, I worry constantly and have racing thoughts. My stomach is always sick, I use pepto and Imodium daily. I just started a new job and it’s sending my anxiety through the roof. My husband doesn’t understand and just calls me neurotic. I don’t really have friends to talk to. I haven’t had insurance for a while and I haven’t been able to go to my doctor about medications. Just suffering everyday. And then there are days like today where I feel so depressed and sad, all I want to do is shut the world away. Getting through the days are so hard all I want to do sleep.

[Hidden]

Welcome! This community is great for finding support and advice. We understand a lot of what you’re going through, even though our situations can be different. I notice the people around me don’t really understand what I’m going through so it’s hard for them to be supportive when they don’t experience the same problems. I hope you can get to your doctor soon, but for now know that this community is here for you.

[Bella1980 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much, I really appreciate your kind words! It really means a lot and I’m glad this community is available for people like me who are struggling so much. Thank you again.

[Hidden in reply to Bella1980]

You’re welcome! I am also very glad to have found this site. Have you tried starting to get some physical activity going during the day? It can help alleviate some symptoms.

[BonnieSue]

Hi Bella,

I have had generalized anxiety disease all my life and I understand much of your misery. I also have depression, which you seem to have quite a bit of today. Is there any way you can see a doctor despite your insurance problems? You really need to do this. We here can be your support, your friends, but we can't substitute for what a doctor can do for you.

You've been on a long slow, downward direction with your health, can you see that? It's time to make yourself get the help you need so much. I am so much better for doing it myself. My anxiety is gone. Can you believe that? My depression is managed, not gone, but I'm ok every day and I want that for you. Don't you? It's not easy taking the steps to reach out and find a way to pay, try what the doc suggests and so forth, but it's so worth it, and YOU are so worth it...please make the effort and get back to me. ok? Asap would be best. Love yourself and move into a better future please. Hugs and Love, BonnieSue