Hurt one too many times

[brokenspirit100]

I am having anxiety and depression and have to find a way back from the big the big black hole that is swallowing me up. I want and need people to connect with. I'm sick of crying a lone. I'm new to this group . I'm open to any help that is out there .

[ashesb03]

I'm so sorry that you are suffering right now. Try to find something you like that relaxes you. Like a movie, craft, listening to music maybe even dance, read a book. It's ok to have a good cry, but after you do just stand up straight and fix your crown. Because you are special and you are going to get through this. I'm here if you need to talk. God loves you and you can do all things through christ!! Much love and happy thoughts to you.

[brokenspirit100 in reply to ashesb03]

Hello,

Thank you for your kind words. I'm trying. It's helps to have people to talk to.

Darlene

[brokenspirit100]

Got up today feeling like hell. Anxiety and depression plus I have bi polar and even though I take my meds it still sucks! Was kicked out of my daughters house this passed Monday and now I'm homeless sitting in a cheep dumpy hotel. It's a long story but anyone wants to hear it I will shear .

[Hidden in reply to brokenspirit100]

please share your story. how long have you been on meds for bipolar disorder? why were you asked to leave your daughter's house?

[brokenspirit100 in reply to Hidden]

I was asked to leave my daughter's house because her husband is very controlling and in short I'm posed a threat to him controlling her. My daughter has also been diagnosed with bipolar. Six months ago she decided to stop medication and therapy.since then it has become impossible to live with her and her controlling husband along with my issues as well. So being asked to leave with no notice was not a shock it just left me in a very bad place. I have been diagnosed with bipolar 7 years ago.I have tried countless medications for bipolar with no success. My doctor just recently put me on lithium.it has only been three weeks but the side effects are unbearable right down to the dry mouth I am not continuing on it. I have a lot of anger and frustration going on but I sincerely believe it's situational and not so much bipolar. See my doctor again on September 25th I am not willing to try any more medication so at this point I'm not sure what's going to happen.

[Hidden in reply to brokenspirit100]

I'm so sorry you're having a hard time. I know how husbands can be controlling. I take lamictal with prozac for depression but lamictal is also a medicine for bipolar issues. have you tried it?

[brokenspirit100 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks but at this point I'm not willing to try any new medication.

[Miss_Aero]

Hello, just wanted to welcome you to the group. I'm recently new myself can tell you how much this place has helped me. It's hard to feel like your so alone or only person in world feeling this. Truth is your not and we are all going through this too. Makes it easier to talk to somebody who know what its truly like. That black hole feeling is a horrible feeling. But you are a strong person and you are gonna get out from it. Keep sharing your downs and ups. Always happy to just listen.

[kevinloveslen]

Hello brokenspirit100 ,

I am so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time right now. Boy, those deep, dark black holes can be so lonely and silent. I've been there so many times and will be praying that you can pull yourself out of this one for good! What has helped me tremendously has been my relationship with God. I know it might sound a bit weird, but after obtaining a B.S. degree in Nursing, an MBA, and becoming I never really felt "complete". Something was always missing. In 2003, I went to church, committed my lift to Christ, and things have never been the same. Now, I wouldn't say that things have been "easy". For four years (2003-2007) I worked on building my relationship with Christ (God). I did this through reading the Bible, prayer/meditation, worship, fasting, and service. Near the end of this four years, I met my wife and was married. The trials started almost immediately, as I had to be hospitalized for 14 days on our honeymoon! I have had to have numerous surgeries and procedures and am currently bed/wheelchair bound (have been since 2012) and suffer from severe pain and depression all the time. That written, we have four AWESOME kids ages 6, 8, 10, and 11 (we had all of them in 4 1/2 years) and my marriage is stronger than ever; as is my relationship with Christ!

There is a verse that I always hung on to during the four years when it was just me and God: "...I will be with you; I will never leave you; nor forsake you." Joshua 1:5 NIV

I wish you the best and please know that I will be praying for you!

Kevin

[Gentlespirit12345]

Hi I've found that music adult coloring and being kind of active in church helps. How about you can check out a museum or go to the park or to a movie or out for coffee or tea. Yoga or swimming. Be patient and kind to yourself. Take care

[Nurturedsis11]

In the same boat. You are not alone

[Hidden]

Hello fellow big black hole sufferer. I know the feeling all too well and am glad you're posting your thoughts here. I feel you...it's an awful feeling crying alone with no one to talk to or help. You can always talk to me, I'll be your friend!