Still on the issue of Essence.

[AnIslandOfPeace]

So in one of my previous posts, I asked what the essence of our existence is and y'all were really supportive, responding with great words of wisdom. Most of you, however, talked about purpose. Now that's something else I really want to talk about because that's what really keeps me depressed. Yeah, you heard right. I feel my purpose is to humanity and not really the whole of humanity but specifically the less privileged. I'm not from a rich home, we are just on the average but I feel great despair when I see people suffer, my heart bleeds. I see these people especially the elderlies and kids on the streets and on TV and I just get reminded of how big of a failure I am. Don't question my age, it is what I said, 19. Yeah, you're wondering why a 19 year old is in a hurry to make it big and start helping people. Honestly, I wonder too and it's killing me. Sometimes I tell myself that I'm in a hurry because with each passing day, I let at least one person down. No one should die from hunger, no one should die from having to drink contaminated water, no one should die from inability to pay hospital bills, no one should die alone, helpless. Really I hate that I feel this is my purpose in life. Maybe I should just get my mind off it because nothing is going right in my life right now. Even my academics is now being affected by this stupid stupid depression. Why does life have to be this hard and cruel?! I'd end it all but then I'd have really failed this people I believe I'm here to help. It hurts man, it hurts, every cell in my body feels it and every cell is giving up. 😥😥😭😭

[NeuronerdDoaty]

Well you can’t end it when you haven’t even started yet. I started as a waitress going through college back in the Paleolithic age. I was clinically depressed back then as well. You reach out as far as your arm goes. Every day my goal was to make at least one person feel better about themselves. I worked on my career in the medical field and I reached more people. You’d be surprised how a strangers kind words can make a life change. That’s what you have to give right now but in the future you’ll have other gifts to give. Be sure to share the blessings in your life. That’s how you know your purpose.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Thanks.

[Stilltrying_]

Those are worthy purposes and I am glad you have them; the world needs more people like you. x

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Stilltrying_]

Thanks a lot.