What do you feel/ think when you can't sleep at night?

[paintingwords]

Hi. So I suffer from anxiety and depression. I have been taking therapy and time off work, thus feeling better. But one of the major problems I face is with sleep. Even when my days are good, sometimes I get really horrible nightmares or just really exhausting vivid dreams that make no sense most of the times.

My main question is that even when I am doing relatively well (not worrying too much) I have a problem sleeping. And I feel like I don't even actively try to sleep because I keep feeling this incompleteness. Like the day wasn't enough (even on fairly productive days where I do physical and mental exercise). Like I just need to be awake and do something. I don't know how else to explain this. I know very well how important sleep is, but I can't convince myself to retire. I might not be trying too hard. But I don't know how to get away from this intense night time feeling of emptiness. (I usually fill it up with Netflix or YouTube. I watch until I can't keep my eyes open and that's how I sleep, way lateee)

I would really to know other people's experiences. Thank you.

[efishman]

I havent slept in 5 weeks because of my anxiety.