Escape

[Cam49]

I always have feelings of wanting to escape, even though my GAD will still be there. Why can’t I just stop feeling worthless and live my life. I’m so tired of this disorder.

I tend to lean on my daughter like a friend instead of being her support and strength when she needs me. Is this wrong? I just hate feeling this way.

And am I always going to be a target too? I’m kind, considerate, work hard, and love the Lord. Is this someone that nobody can be friends with? I deal with this every day at my job. I work with a manipulator and I can’t do anything about it. Except lose friends I just made there.

I don’t know what to do except disappear.

I’m getting desperate.

[Xena13]

You are dealing with a lot!!! It is hard to be nice to yourself when you are not used to thinking that way. I am trying to accept my anxiety as a reaction to negative thoughts. These thoughts are usually not true. I think it will take much work on my part to change my thinking. How are you trying to help yourself?

[Cam49 in reply to Xena13]

I take two medications for it daily and I talk to my husband. Hes supportive. I pray every day asking God to take my anxiety away too.

[Ragdoll15]

I know how you feel. I rely on my daughter too much and feel guilty about it, she has said "I want my mum back" she misses the way I used to be fun loving and self sufficient. I am sorry that you have trouble with work colleagues. Some people will take advantage if they know we have problems, I do pray that things will get better for you we must always have hope. You mention that you are a christain, have you tried talking to a church minister, my church has been so supportive to me.

[Cam49 in reply to Ragdoll15]

I've been thinking about another church nearby that seems like a good fit. I think I could open up and talk to the minister there. I've met him and his wife.

[catch_the_music]

Life feels like that at times. Like we are just "out there" by ourselves - even as Christians. I think those thoughts happen to everyone from time to time. One of my best sources of encouraging fellowship is with my small group at church. Do you have a small group that you attend and like? You probably also know about KLOVE radio station - always encouraging and uplifting. Prayers that you can soon connect with some really great people that care about you!