Addicted to my pain

[dbeck128]

Anyone feel addicted to their anxiety or depression? When it's gone you feel empty? Your missing that thing that always drags you down...

[UFC80]

Yes. It's a sick existence we live! Often all we have as a constant. A sick normal, the only thing we have. Same almost as for a suffering Anorexic.

[Hidden]

Yes,,,yes...and yes...I have ocd, anxiety and depression. All this didn’t really start until I suffered a trauma about 2 years ago. Before then I was ‘normal’ and enjoyed life. Now I am a shell of who I used to be an am almost getting used to it. Don’t even know what normal is anymore. It’s sad.

[hypercat54]

Yes. It's what we know and change is scary. It's the thought of the devil you know. I read of someone who was very sickly as a child and was in and out of hospital a lot. When she became better she was resisting it coz she said no one had ever taught her to be well and she found great problems adjusting to life without her illness.

We cling on to what's familar as it's something we can hide behind. x

[Ragdoll15]

Yes. We probably fear that this good feeling will not last and we will plunge back down and feel even worse than before, so we prefer to settle for the familiar feelings.

[Hidden in reply to Ragdoll15]

Yes your so right.

[Hidden]

This sounds strange but yes I do. Another weird thing about anxiety.

[Fujiapple]

Yes! When I find peace I feel a tiny bit of regret like 'oh no that is gone now what' as if I am addicted to adrenaline.