Hospitalization Experiences

[NiftyNiffler]

This is my first time posting on here, despite having the app on my phone for weeks now. I guess I just didn’t really know what to say. I’m going through a really rough patch right now and my only local source of support is my non-supportive parents. I get berated by them daily of why I’m not better yet or fixed. And they just make it worse.

It’s come to a point that I think I need to hospitalize myself. But I am scared. I don’t know if I’m strong enough to make it through the process and I’m scared what it will look like. As of now I just picture myself there in a hospital gown I hate, in a too hot room that’s void of any noise except for a snoring roommate and I will never sleep. That my anxiety will be about the hospital conditions and will be all I can focus on instead of dealing with my true issues.

Is anyone willing to share their experiences, good or bad, with checking yourself into the hospital? Any tips you have for making it seem less scary?

Thanks for taking your time to read this. Any help is appreciated.

[JAYnLA]

Hi Nifty. I did it for three days last year. I just needed to surrender to the guidance of others because I couldn’t keep my anxiety in check. They will give you medication no doubt, and you will sleep. I remember in my intake interview just saying over and over, “I’m terrified.” What I was terrified about was my future. The place itself was fine. Definitely not Disneyland, but fine. I’m glad I did it.

[EEMO]

Check this out and see if you can find a counselor of some sort. Don't feel guilty for Feeling ill or your Parents not accepting it.

[Hidden]

Yeah I was in for two months. Like a jail. We had to walk in a line and be locked in every room. There were multiple fights at once for no reason. I was sexually assaulted because it was co ed. Many sexual advances from men and women. A transgendered pt really a man was on the floor and stole my clothes and wore them in front of my and stood at my door taunting

me. I'm not prejudice but he-she of course was bigger and stronger. No sleep because of the ten minute checks. Had to wake up at five. TV was only on certain shows for our concern. Drug users, people hallucinating, meds that make you comatose that are forced on you. One made me blind for three days. I refused meds and was tackled by nurses and given shots multiple times.one roommate was always naked on her bed doing things to herself 24 hours a day and stole my jewelry and told me she would beat me up if I didn't give her the shirt I was wearing. I have ptsd just from the hospital experience and made my anxiety worse and changed who I am.

I believe in getting help when you need it but my hospital was horrible and has a history of deaths due to treatment and restraining practices. It was a state hospital. Maybe there are some nice ones idk. I wasn't allowed to leave or see my child the whole time until they decided I was better. It could have been up to a year. It was exactly like jail to me. Sorry for the honest bad news

[JAYnLA in reply to Hidden]

That sounds dreadful Mel, I'm so sorry it happened to you. My experience was through my insurance - not the state - perhaps that's a big difference. I'm glad you're doing better now!

[Hidden in reply to JAYnLA]

Thank you. Yeah, a nurse with no insurance. Shouldn't be that way.

[JAYnLA in reply to Hidden]

No, it certainly should not be that way. Better days ahead... that's my mantra.