What’s the point

[Photographyanimal]

What’s the point in any of this? Why do I always overthink everything and misunderstanding what is going on? I fucked everything up. I seriously don’t want to be here anymore. I’ve never felt more alone than I do now. I have made the one person I love most in this world so mad at me that he can’t even stand the sight of me. He looks at me with so much anger that I completely hate myself more than I did before. Why do I do this to myself every time? I feel like I’m going to vomit all over the bed as he lays on the couch cause he can’t seem to come to bed with me. Do I blame him? No. I deserve this. I jumped to conclusions because my brain overthought something that was stupid. I see that now. I wouldn’t be surprised if he broke up with me. That’s what is going through my head and I just want it all to stop. I’m tired of feeling this unbelievable pain in my chest and the sickening feeling in my gut. I just want it all to stop...

[Hidden]

I understand how you would feel but as some one that has been divorced, maybe you have too idk, I can say of course he didn't want his marriage to end, not many do and being there for her is a nice thing. He wants to support her as she was a major part of his life. If they are not yet divorced you should know where he is coming from and what you got into. Doesn't mean he doesn't want to move on with you. It may be over but still a sad event in his life. Just be there for him and let him have closure. No offense please. He needs closure to move on and it doesn't mean he wants her back or doesn't want you. It could be too soon to commit.

[scientician]

I know exactly how you feel. When my husband and I fight we end up just like this. We have always managed to talk eventually and break through the isolation, but for me it is torture enduring the feeling that this might be it.

I don’t know how to make you feel better, but maybe it helps you to know that I see you, and I completely identify with how you are feeling in this moment. No matter what happens, please know that you will not feel like this forever. You will catch your breath.