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My mother was my first country, the first place i ever lived


I put my mother on a pedestal, this is my safest place, laying down on her watching Netflix is one of my favorite things, i laughed like i didn't have a care in the world, like the old me. This woman loves me more than life itself and whatever darkness might cloud my head, whatever bad thoughts may come this is my light, mom don't want to live in a world without me in it... and when the bad days come i hope i remember these words

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My mom is my everything too. She knows what an amazingly, strong person you are. You got this

Thanks hun, i can't imagine life without mine

Thank you for posting this Danielle. It’s amazing how beautiful and valuable our mom are.

Once I reached 24, I completely forgave and accepted my mom for the past, present and who she is. I couldn’t run away from the fact that I was incredibly flawed. All humans are flawed. But you don’t internalize it until you realize how lost everyone is. It’s horrible and beautiful to come to realizations that the people you grew up thinking had it all figured out we’re just trying to soothe the child inside them.

I had to focus internally. Realize that when I have children I will hurt them. Unintentionally of course. I know my parents did the best with what they had.

I love my mom more than anything in the world. But grieving who I thought my parents were is one of the hardest things I had to deal with as a young adult. But that’s apart of growth and connection with family and loved ones.

Thank you for posting this. Fascinating subject and I am happy to hear you and your mom are connecting.

Im glad you forgave her, we all make mistakes that's part of being human and yeah our mothers are pretty amazing



JEG325 in reply to Hidden

Hey, O40. Nice to see you here!

Hidden in reply to JEG325

Thanks Jeg.

Hope you are both well 💕 x

JEG325 in reply to Hidden

We are. Sue sends her love too!

Agora1 in reply to JEG325

"Hi" to the both of you from me too. :)

Callmedanielle in reply to Hidden

🌻🌻🌻🌻 hi hun

Hidden in reply to Callmedanielle

🌹🌹🌺🌺👋👋 xxxx



That was lovely, my friend. You're definitely one up on me there. I never got along with my mom and my therapist said she was a cause of much trauma in my life. Sue helps a lot but, still the restless darkness overwhelm me sometimes. What then? Perhaps I'm overstating it or worrying too much. Who knows. But, I'm sure glad you have a safe haven, D!

I can definitely relate to having a parent who's traumatic to a child, i had an abusive father. I know how hard it is, im glad you have sue, we need a little light someone to light our way in the darkness

Agreed. Walk in the light, my bright shining friend!

My mom died about 18 months ago. Since that happened, I don’t cope well with anything.

fauxartist in reply to Kat63

I'm sorry for your loss.....and it's a devastating blow to you.....I hope you have some support to help you .....

Kat63 in reply to fauxartist

Thank you. I’m reaching out for all the help that’s available.

JEG325 in reply to Kat63

You're friends and I will stand by you as always, Kat!

Callmedanielle in reply to Kat63

Im really sorry for your loss, i can't imagine the pain.

I am so very happy for you that you have your mother to support you and love you unconditionally. You would think that would make us okay and right with the world. But that's the insidiousness of this have a sadness for no reason other than a chemical deficiency in your brain.....and nothing can fix hold onto what you do have and be grateful that you at least have that much....most people have no one because no one can understand this disease like another who suffers with it. And if you have someone who can accept you for who we are.....that's a very rare gift.

Agora1 in reply to fauxartist

fauxartist, what a beautiful and touching response xx

Hidden in reply to fauxartist

You made me break down in a good way..I was so blessed for 30 years with a loving mother...thank you faux..nailed it once surprise at all! To the moon and back!!!

You're right nothing can fix it, i remember telling mom her love wasn't enough to keep me alive, but not wanting to cause her pain is a great motivation to keep on fighting this. She's my blessing. Hope you're having a great Sunday so far faux 🌻


Yes, remember her. I have a friend who is like a mother to me, and I have thought of the effect my not being in the world would have on her, when feeling very low. It's been a good incentive to stay alive and try to be happy.

Callmedanielle in reply to Hidden

Definitely, get strength from that, that's what's been keeping me together

you will always be your mummies baby no matter what age you are and whatever you go through she goes through as well.sounds like you have a special mum and she has a special daughter forever and a day.

🌻💛💛💛 im greatful for her and i have the best mom there is, thank you for your words Kenster

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