Feeling bleh

[Eggsandbacon]

So it’s my bday and I’m not feeling in any way special at all 😞

I’m feeling bummed too after discussing antidepressants with another medical professional 😣

I’m trying all my advices to boost my mood, food (but have no appetite), music (any upbeat,but doesn’t do anything for me). Tried looking at some retail therapy (but feel guilty acting wreckles). Seems to be easier to just hide in a hole, cry away the knot in my throat.

-not so happy birthday

-exhausted

-feeling old

-underacomplished

[Jaxsonova]

Hi Eggy Bacony,

Happy Birthday!!

At least you managed to share how you feel - im here for the first time ever after feeling really rubbish and having endless anxiety attacks unless I'm asleep and by scrolling through briefly im just feeling really proud of everyone being able to reach out to each other anonymously online even if its because its the next best thing.

Its not easy - all we can do is take it day by day and make the most of trying to change it. Even if some days we just curl up and cry

Lots of love x

[Eggsandbacon in reply to Jaxsonova]

Thank you 😉

[Agora1]

Eggsandbacon, birthdays seem to make us reflect our age, where we've been

and where we are going. Rather it should be a day of celebration on our special

day. No matter how far we have come, it is in our power to change the course of

events and make the rest of the journey an accomplished adventure.

Happy Birthday my friend! You are here for a reason. Take a deep breathe,

put on a smile and treat yourself. You deserve it. xx

[Eggsandbacon in reply to Agora1]

Thank you 😊

[Busylondoner in reply to Agora1]

Preach! This 10/10. Eggsandbacon I'm largely anxious but I always feel extremely melancholy on my birthday (and New year's) having time to reflect and ruminate too long is never healthy for me! Start to unravel. I hope you are able to find some form of joy or respite in the little moments, I don't know about you, but it's often the unexpected gestures or small obvservations, outside of parties and cake giving, that bring me the most Joy when I'm wrapped up inside myself. Hope you find some peace and embrace the day 🌺

[JAYnLA]

Feelings are feelings, but here's a fact: YOU MADE IT THIS FAR, PROBLEMS AND ALL! Congratulations! It's a real accomplishment.

[Eggsandbacon in reply to JAYnLA]

Thank you

That actually felt good reading out loud 🙌🏼

[TickingClock]

HAPPY Birthday to youuuu,

Happy Birthday to Youuuu,

Happy BIRTHDAY Dear EggsandBacon

Happy Birthday to YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!

Listen your Favorite album, even if it makes you sad - you shed those tears and youll feel better afterward!

Eat something that your craving - even if its not good for you, your "diet" starts tomorrow

Dance or move your body in a way that you'll release endorphins which will make you happy!

i hope this helps you or at least makes you grin!

[Eggsandbacon in reply to TickingClock]

Definitely got a grin

Thank you sooo much

Teas have started to shed slowly

I know I shouldn’t cry since I will meet my family later for dinner so I don’t want them to see me sad (don’t think I can handle the questions).

I’m trying really hard to stick to the dinner plan and not cancel, but not sure if I can get myself to handle any of it.

Never have I felt fear, or insecurity this way. Makes me sad to think that I can’t be myself in front of my own family.

[TickingClock in reply to Eggsandbacon]

im sorry... i was like that last year for my birthday, turning 30 in a new state, no friends and a horrible job. missed my friends so much, and just to end up at chilies with fake family that dont give a rats butt about me. was the worst - cried before i went and cried myself to sleep that night, was lucky enough to have no one noticed but i think thats what hurt the most, not talking to anyone about it - so i am so happy you decided to go on here and at least talked to us about it. you are loved and deserve to be here, and if you cant believe in you, i will. i believe in you that you can cry for a bit and feel a bit better afterward - that you can go to this dinner and enjoy the moment your in and not worry about how youll feel later - just be in the moment - allow yourself to be sad - its not bad to feel sad because there is only one way to move from being sad, and thats up to happy =) hope that makes sense lol

[Eggsandbacon in reply to TickingClock]

Yes it does make sense

Thank you

The comment is very appreciated 🤗

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry. Happy birthday. You are special. Don't forget that.

[Eggsandbacon in reply to Hidden]

Thank you 😊

[Sillysausage234]

🎂

[Mary-intussuception]

🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈

♡ ******* Happy Birthday ******* ♡

🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹

🌹🌹🌹🌹

🌹🌹🌹

🌹🌹

🌹

God Bless

Love From Mary (in Wales, UK)

xXx

[Eggsandbacon in reply to Mary-intussuception]

Thank you

That’s beautiful 🤗

[snow_queen]

I'm late but happy birthday!!!!! it's hard when a day that's supposed to be special turns out unhappy. it sounds like you're doing your best to make it as good as it can be though, which is all anyone (even yourself) can expect from you

[IChoose]

Me too and so what! I think it's all the pressure to be Happy on so called special occasions that drives us crazy. If you don't feel like celebrating your birthday today, you're free, dont do it. Wait til you're in the mood to do something nice for yourself that you enjoy, and do that. In the meantime, get the sadness out of your system, and when you're done, take a nice deep breath, inhale, get up and make some soup or something. Watch a little TV. Chill out - you'll be fine.

Sorry, but I've got to say it, "Happy birthday!"

[Eggsandbacon in reply to IChoose]

I love it, thank you. I wished I would have relieved the sadness instead of trying to keep a face for everyone.

I suppose I’m afraid of letting myself be sad and turn it into depression 😞

Which kinda has me wondering now “am I even being true to myself?” :/

Either way, thank you. 🤗

[IChoose in reply to Eggsandbacon]

I think (meaning I could be wrong) that one cause for depression is repressed anger. So, when you're done crying, give yourself permission to get really angry, if you feel it's locked up inside. Just uncontrollable crying fits anywhere can be a sign of depression I think, but that means it's a symptom, not a cause.

Therapy taught me that people in my life and my life situations are a cause of a lot of my problems. In short, being depressed or anxious doesn't mean you're crazy, it can be for good reason.

But when you're wondering if you're being true to yourself - that can be a good time for therapy (but I noticed you're already dealing with the big pharma and doctor side of it already). I like therapy myself.

I also like eggs and bacon!!!

[Eggsandbacon in reply to IChoose]

I enjoyed therapy as well, but my peers seemed to mock it and not encourage it.

That behavior separated me apart from therapy, but I’ve been pondering in returning.

[IChoose in reply to Eggsandbacon]

Good for you! I learned in therapy to set boundaries and the person who belittles my therapy doesnt like that. Two therapists have told me this person is crazy or psychotic.