I’m still lost....

[Raiinbow08]

I feel like I have no hope. All of my depression and anxiety and obesity tie in together. A vicious cycle for me. I am depressed because I’m overweight, I’m overweight because my depression causes me to eat nonstop. I just don’t know what to do at this point. I’m to the point in which I no longer want to leave my home, so no one will look at this monstrosity. I have officially reached 300 pounds. I am ashamed to admit this, share this, but I feel no hope. The scale keeps climbing. I can remember me being at 270 pounds and thinking wow, I’m 30 pounds away from being 300 pounds. Then it was wow I’m 285 pounds, I’m 15 pounds from being 300 pounds. Now I’m finally here. It scares me, someone please help me.

I know I’m the only one that can help myself. I look at myself in the mirror and I don’t recognize myself. I just want to be happy. I want to know why I can’t find any motivation. Why can’t I stop eating? Why do I keep eating the way I am eating. Why do I have this problem? I am scared I am going to die this way. But the fear itself isn’t even enough to get me to change my eating habits, scarier. Is anyone else going through this? I have researched plenty of diets/ ways for me to get healthier and lose weight. But why can’t I bring myself to do it? I’m scared at this rate I will be at 400 pounds in a couple of years.

[mvillarreal]

Have you considered talking to a therapist about this? I know you mentioned you feel like you are the only one who can help yourself, but do you think cognitive-behavioral therapy could be beneficial to you?

[Raiinbow08 in reply to mvillarreal]

I’ve never really looked into that.

[jesca18]

I personally, and many others I know have had great success with weight watchers. As long as you follow and stick with it you’ll see results!

I didn’t even go to the meetings. I downloaded the app on my phone and tracked my food that way; the app makes it super easy! Back when I joined they had a really good new member deal if you agree to 3 months. Best of luck to you!

[Raiinbow08 in reply to jesca18]

Thank you so much! I lost weight on WW a long time ago like back in 2008. I am going to look into it again.

[jkl5500]

The replies here are very good, and I think you should try both. Counseling is a must to teach you ways of dealing with depression other than eating. That's at the core of all this. Weight Watchers or something similar is great, but you need some extra help to get back on the right track, and stay there. Please don't try and do this all by yourself. Get the counseling you need to develop the right habits, and you'll get the results that you want.