Anxiety returns

[Chappy12]

Hi all..hope you are all as well as can be .I know this anxiety is so hard..I only slept 2 hrs last night because I am scared of dying in my sleep.i have an autistic daughter with tourettes and I worry about this so much.i hate it...was doing really well.aleeping well and pow it comes back...I suffered from severe insomnia this time last year and I worry about going backwards..I also had severe health anxiety and a horrible fear of death..been crying last couple of days before this I was managing to go out and felt like I was returning to normal..had quiet a few adventures even thou the anxiety was still there.i done it..there have been six deaths family and friends in last two yrs which I know we're the trigger..I had two boys die in my early twenty's which I know triggered the death anxiety ..it comes and goes over the yrs..I just want it to go away forever ..it creeps up unexpectedly when I'm lying in bed..I could of had a really good day...this with health anxiety had to be the worse phobias of all..why me😢😢 my little grandson and his mum lived with me for two yrs and I miss them so much..I still see them ..their have been so many changes..😢I miss his little feet running around upstairs in morning..they moved into their own place..I treated my son's gf like a daughter as she was abandoned by her own parents when pregnant and it felt like a bereavement when they moved out last year..I have my job up because of caring for my daughter..I feel so alone most days and trying to figure out where do I go from here .I've spent so many yrs looking after everyone.i forgot about myself 😢

[hypercat54]

Oh dear. Well we have to sleep as we would die without it and if this is destined there is nothing you can do about it. It would be very rare to do this unless you have serious medical conditions - do you?

I think it would also help to work out what would happen to your daughter if you weren't around any more to care for her. For example a family member might be able to take her in etc.

The next thing you have to do is start having some sort of life of your own. Is your daughter able to be left alone for a while? If not then get a family member to babysit for a few hours so you can get yourself out and about. My ex bf did this with his autistic daughter - arranged for another daughter to take her in, and she also babysat so he could go out a bit. x

[Chappy12]

Hi no medical problems..just a blip on the insomnia train and a vent...🤗feeling better now.had been sleeping real well since January...get the odd night were I don't.thats what sets my fear of relapse off...a lot has happened.so I'm not surprised I get these anxious moments...❤️

[Chappy12 in reply to Chappy12]

Thanks for replying...that's what I need to do a bit of life for myself..we do a lot of stuff together which I love..was just feeling a bit negative this morning xxx