why do we live if it just hurts

[2Scared]

Life is an endless cycle of disappointment sprinkled with random moments of happiness. Are those small moments meant to keep me around longer? 24 years of something catastrophic happening every year: abuse, suicide, self harm, loneliness, cutting, heartbreak, cheating, sickness, abandonment. Are the random moments I feel happy supposed to bandage every vile bitter thing that keeps pouring out of me? It doesn't feel evenly weighed. I'm going to try and numb myself from now on. I don't want to feel anymore.

[Adlon57]

You are restricted by what the tv says, what commercialism says, what AI leads yourself to believe, get out there make your own rules, form your own identity, get away from that 💩, life is not all what you see on those bl#### smartphones, or Sky news, making you brain dead! I try to live via 20th century values, but it is too late for me I'm a retired terminally ill "male" gleaning off a subsistence, fighting tooth and nail to live my miserable existence, what is left of it, I want privacy, not a AI scam merchant trying to find what is left of my existence, finding my call & text phone number for greater security🙄. [the old landline phones, an obscure memory now] You are young enough don't be restricted by AI values, there is a world out there, the natural one is getting smaller every day, you have the time, don't be a hermit, at least try to prove them wrong👌👍

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Adlon57]

Seems to me you're fighting a losing battle, trying to get anyone younger than we are to hear you. They never knew anything else. That's scary, isn't it? Who said "Those who don't remember history are condemned to repeat it?" Schools aren't teaching what you and I know.

[2Scared in reply to Nothing_but_books]

I love school and learning. Got accepted to do my masters couple months ago

[Nothing_but_books in reply to 2Scared]

Congratulations! I don't have one of those, but learning's my favorite thing. Well, second favorite.

[Adlon57 in reply to 2Scared]

My apologies 2Scared I am obviously not on par with this question, should not of rendered my opinion!

[Adlon57 in reply to Nothing_but_books]

Yeh! "History" is interpreted by the likes of Wikepedia, they can't get their basic facts right, Ancestry is not really much better, I remember when I moved into my house in 2003, going through all my school history books, for relevant historical "facts", they were so biased and misinformed, I had to through them out, I live in Northern Ireland, very heavily English based [the winners of wars ALWAYS write the defeated country's history] like AI is our history "master" now, its gone too far, we have let their "cancer" rule our general society, the lacklustre effects are the wimpish, no backbone society, the effeminate lot which "sets" our decline in standards public 'way' of life! We do not "evolve", learn from our past mistakes, form new ideas [sorry about that!, sounding like a political pamphlet😩] 😤😤

[Adlon57 in reply to Adlon57]

The younger generation are looking for effect, what they want, what 'pleases' them, and they rule the roost, the previous generation civil rights, flower power, race equality, etc, pleading for "that", unfortunately in 'doing that' , it has gone over the top, mankind is a greedy, arrogant species, believes they are the number "one", nature is running out of resources, and will eventually run out, beware🤫

[Adlon57 in reply to Adlon57]

OOPS! Missed out a "generation" circa 1980's - circa 2000's etc🙄

[litethatnevergoesout]

I think happiness is not the norm in life and has never been.

[Nothing_but_books in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

I hate hearing you say that. Much easier to find what we look for. Try to keep hope.

"But leave the Wise to wrangle, and with me

The Quarrel of the Universe let be:

And, in some corner of the Hubbub coucht,

Make Game of that which makes as much of Thee."

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Nothing_but_books]

I hate feeling it

[Nothing_but_books in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

I know, I know. Who wouldn't? You're human. Sometimes life s**ks. Sometimes a lot of sometimes.

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Nothing_but_books]

Nice verse

[Nothing_but_books in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

Merci. 😆

Now don't pull out your French on me, I'm just about done.

[Starrlight in reply to Nothing_but_books]

😆

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Nothing_but_books]

I shouldn’t say it either. it’s been a terrible month

[Nothing_but_books in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

Wanna talk, let me know.

[Arymretep]

This might help you

For you

[gajh]

I am sorry you are suffering. I hear your pain. I care.

[LunarEcho24]

It's not fair, and it is not evenly weighted. I don't think happiness is the default mode of human beings, that is only what they put in brochures, advertisements, and social media posts. You obviously have suffered greatly, and I hope you have some better days ahead. I'm in a state where I am very pessimistic about life, to the point of being a doom-and-gloomer. I don't seem to feel a whole lot these days, I'm not sure if it's the medication, or I've just started to shut down emotionally. It's not a good place to be. I hope you don't numb yourself out, I hope you find some kind and meaning and strength in your suffering, and hopefully experience a little less of it.